Singing is better than talking

Okay, I realized that I blogged using Chinese too much recently, so here comes my English post to not making my English worsen.

Today, doing the same thing as in Singing and Shouting.
At least~~~ We had some responds from those pedestrian, they looked at us and asked what were we doing etc.
I'm not as usual as before, quieter ???
Yeah, I didn't talk much with teammates because I felt that I couldn't even involve in and the topic they were talking about was not what I know.
Perhaps, the gap between them and I is getting bigger and bigger.
I was trying to fill the gap but it didn't works well.
Maybe the period that I leave them was too long and causes the relationship gap to grow bigger.
I was once frustrated and wanted to go away but it's not in my principle of life.
My leader realized how I felt and told me that this is how I should learn to be more socialize.

Today, the thing I enjoyed the most was Shouting and Singing the song, because everyone was doing the same thing with me, so I didn't have the feel that I'd been abandoned or something.
I know my leader knows what I feel, so to not make me feel that I'd been abandoned or what, she let me do some job.
Am I right to think like this?
or she just want to punish me for being so emo recently?
Nah, what I'm thinking now is 22nd May please come earlier!
I don't want to stuck in this place anymore.
It's not hell or heaven, I think I can't fit in and this place is not mine.
Forgive me for being so straight forward.

Anyway, I'll have my English Presentation next week.
I confirm will elaborate more about the BEST AGE which is 21 y/o---the Golden Key thingy.
My English teacher seems like didn't understand what I meant about the Golden Key and making fun on it.
Well, I'm not saying that my teacher is not serious, but I just don't think it's funny yet it's important because 21 y/o is the turning point of our life!

ciao~~