I wanna have a BF

I want to have a BOYFRIEND!!!
You know why I desperate?
@___@
because someone, that I knew last sem through an activity,
Kept on asking me to go out and ask whether I'm available.
I find a lot of reasons to avoid these kind of QUESTIONssss.
know why?
I just couldn't accept lo.
Maybe he just wanna be friend or what, but still I can sense ma!
I don't know he's serious or what.

The story should begin like this:
The day after the activity, he added me as friend in FB.
Then chat like normal friend.
You know la, chatting sure will say something about GF or BF,
so chat chat chat, till the end he say I'm in his LIST.
LIST?!!!
My respond to him was o.O,
then bye, offline, off to bed, and sleep.

After "this case" no more interaction as in no "like" no "comments" those stuff.
This sem, he suddenly active in my FB. =___=
Ask whether I'm available to go out maybe to have a dinner? @.@
I have interview so rejected.
I don't know what reason to give anymore if there's next time.

Therefore, know why I wanna have a boyfriend?
because if I have a REAL BF, I don't need to search for reasons etc.
Can say I'm picky in choosing a BF or anything, just everything depends on the so-called FEEL.
If we both are in a click, then we'll be a great couple.

Haiz, anything.
I don't know why I always want to pretend like I'm superb infront of those guys.
Ego?
lols......
I'm not sure though.
I just wanna be myself.
I'm like this and it's my characteristic or specialty?
I'm sure in this SMALL world I'll have fate with the special one.
=D

Ciao~~