對，如標題。
我想要永恆的友誼，而非短暫的友情。
誒！想到什麽蛤？！XD
有時候，透過一個小小的活動認識了與你有同樣frequency or channel 的人，這很好。
但是，這段友誼可否永恆下去？
在這裡讀書的友誼，肯定沒有很多是永恆。
天蝎座的我，與其他天蝎座還蠻相似的。
重感情。
嗯，我對待家人朋友都放足感情下去。
曾經我可以因為朋友的事情而煩惱，弄的所有人都為我而轉。
上了大學，我反而像拋開這種想法，自己去尋找我要的東西。
在大學，幾萬個人其中幾個就是你的好朋友，這有多難找啊！
但是好朋友的定義是什麽？
你究竟是以什麽條件來定義他/她是你的好朋友？
感覺這是看“感覺” FEEL。
好吧！要去導生宴了，和可愛的亞維老師約會咯！XD
ciao~~
Friday, May 27, 2011
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
所有東西都沖上來的感覺
當你覺得自己其實已經可以放鬆了的時候，
突然一股很龐大的力量再次往你的頭腦沖去，
你會怎麼樣？
我會崩潰。
簡單來說：一波已平、一波速起。
忙完了活動，現在要忙的是報告。
很多組內報告、個人報告。
飛機票更是讓人懊惱。
promotion 不promo 好好來，讓我得不到promo price.
下次你最好跟我來個大promo讓我搶！！！
website 不要 一直lag！！！
最近，非常的emo。
很愛來個“我想自己靜一靜”的那種場景，就如電影內那些人說的臺詞+語氣+情感。
暫時不想有任何人他進來我的思緒。
再仔細想一想，其實我在想什麽？
我到底希望得到什麽？
我的規劃到底是怎麼樣？
爲什麽突然這麼空虛？
我想做很多東西，但是受限制的是我不知道的事。
上禮拜去唱K，把所有東西唱出來的感覺是爽到~~~~~~
真的很想唱歌飽。>__<
千淘萬漉雖辛苦，吹盡狂沙始到金。
哈哈哈！厲害吧這是我唯一在中學背的滾瓜爛熟的名句！=)
我很想知道那位 Neihu, Taiwan 的人是誰？
幹嘛一直view 我的 blog? @@
歡迎自己來承認。=D
突然一股很龐大的力量再次往你的頭腦沖去，
你會怎麼樣？
我會崩潰。
簡單來說：一波已平、一波速起。
忙完了活動，現在要忙的是報告。
很多組內報告、個人報告。
飛機票更是讓人懊惱。
promotion 不promo 好好來，讓我得不到promo price.
下次你最好跟我來個大promo讓我搶！！！
website 不要 一直lag！！！
最近，非常的emo。
很愛來個“我想自己靜一靜”的那種場景，就如電影內那些人說的臺詞+語氣+情感。
暫時不想有任何人他進來我的思緒。
再仔細想一想，其實我在想什麽？
我到底希望得到什麽？
我的規劃到底是怎麼樣？
爲什麽突然這麼空虛？
我想做很多東西，但是受限制的是我不知道的事。
上禮拜去唱K，把所有東西唱出來的感覺是爽到~~~~~~
真的很想唱歌飽。>__<
千淘萬漉雖辛苦，吹盡狂沙始到金。
哈哈哈！厲害吧這是我唯一在中學背的滾瓜爛熟的名句！=)
我很想知道那位 Neihu, Taiwan 的人是誰？
幹嘛一直view 我的 blog? @@
歡迎自己來承認。=D
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Relief
What a relief.
Finally, it comes to an end.
Am I happy with what I'd done?
Can say yes and no?
50 50. =D
At least I'd learned something which is do not give up until you finish it.
I'm happy to meet new friend evernthough I know it will not last long .
OK, now it's the time for me to concentrate in academic.
If not no scholarship. >__<
Recently, drank a little bit. >_<
Well, time left not much.
RUSH RUSH and RUSH.
Then, MALAYSIA, I will be back! =D
ciao`~~~
Finally, it comes to an end.
Am I happy with what I'd done?
Can say yes and no?
50 50. =D
At least I'd learned something which is do not give up until you finish it.
I'm happy to meet new friend evernthough I know it will not last long .
OK, now it's the time for me to concentrate in academic.
If not no scholarship. >__<
Recently, drank a little bit. >_<
Well, time left not much.
RUSH RUSH and RUSH.
Then, MALAYSIA, I will be back! =D
ciao`~~~
Friday, May 20, 2011
Crazy Life with Crazy people
Have you tried to be active for 24 hours?!
OMG, I did not sleep yesterday. @@
Not doing anything but have fun.
It started from yesterday's 5 pm till today 12pm.
Went to Carrefour to buy materials for steamboat with Seniors and friends.
I bought lots of biscuits to keep stock just in case I'm hungry.
Steamboat until 10.30pm , then off to Hostel's canteen for BEER~~
Woohoo~~~Of course I didn't drink much!
I drank juice-flavor Beer, it's not really a beer la, just sweeter than other beer.
With 3.5% Alcohol only?!!
Another is wine or what? I'm not sure about it, it's milk wine which contains 17% alcohol, I drank I sip ONLY. Nice weh~~~For girls who don't like bitter wine or beer, they can drink milk wine.
Ok, with only 3.5% alcohol, my face went red and my head and neck were HOT !!!
LOLS~~~
Then, Played until 1.30am. Some went back because their hostels are at the bottom of the hill.
We who stay uphill continue playing.
The worst thing is, who lose will have to drink a cup of beer.
I sure won't drink la~~
but, I drank when I play with Year 1 friends. >_<
Not much.
After that, we were asked to go to other place because the person incharge of the canteen have to lock the door and off the lights. @@
We chit-chatted in the dark.
Whoa~~~~I only realized yesterday there are lots of seniors.
4am, we, Year one Crazy people couldn't sleep.
So, we decided to go to KTV!
OMG, this was the longest KTV I had before.
We sang for 6 hours until we don't know what to sing.
I'm happy because finally I can sing loudly and the sound system is very good~~~
As if I'm having my own concert with 3 listeners?! @@
Anyway, their KTV sound system is not bad, but the only thing I'm not satisfied is that their SONGS~~~~~ arghhhh.....their songs are all not up-to-date, English songs are all old song and those stars I know didn't appear.
12pm, back to hostel.
Made myself clean then slept till now.
Conclusion~~~~
My life is rotating 180 degrees.
I'm not an owl. Q__Q
ciao~~~~
OMG, I did not sleep yesterday. @@
Not doing anything but have fun.
It started from yesterday's 5 pm till today 12pm.
Went to Carrefour to buy materials for steamboat with Seniors and friends.
I bought lots of biscuits to keep stock just in case I'm hungry.
Steamboat until 10.30pm , then off to Hostel's canteen for BEER~~
Woohoo~~~Of course I didn't drink much!
I drank juice-flavor Beer, it's not really a beer la, just sweeter than other beer.
With 3.5% Alcohol only?!!
Another is wine or what? I'm not sure about it, it's milk wine which contains 17% alcohol, I drank I sip ONLY. Nice weh~~~For girls who don't like bitter wine or beer, they can drink milk wine.
Ok, with only 3.5% alcohol, my face went red and my head and neck were HOT !!!
LOLS~~~
Then, Played until 1.30am. Some went back because their hostels are at the bottom of the hill.
We who stay uphill continue playing.
The worst thing is, who lose will have to drink a cup of beer.
I sure won't drink la~~
but, I drank when I play with Year 1 friends. >_<
Not much.
After that, we were asked to go to other place because the person incharge of the canteen have to lock the door and off the lights. @@
We chit-chatted in the dark.
Whoa~~~~I only realized yesterday there are lots of seniors.
4am, we, Year one Crazy people couldn't sleep.
So, we decided to go to KTV!
OMG, this was the longest KTV I had before.
We sang for 6 hours until we don't know what to sing.
I'm happy because finally I can sing loudly and the sound system is very good~~~
As if I'm having my own concert with 3 listeners?! @@
Anyway, their KTV sound system is not bad, but the only thing I'm not satisfied is that their SONGS~~~~~ arghhhh.....their songs are all not up-to-date, English songs are all old song and those stars I know didn't appear.
12pm, back to hostel.
Made myself clean then slept till now.
Conclusion~~~~
My life is rotating 180 degrees.
I'm not an owl. Q__Q
ciao~~~~
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Singing is better than talking
Okay, I realized that I blogged using Chinese too much recently, so here comes my English post to not making my English worsen.
Today, doing the same thing as in Singing and Shouting.
At least~~~ We had some responds from those pedestrian, they looked at us and asked what were we doing etc.
I'm not as usual as before, quieter ???
Yeah, I didn't talk much with teammates because I felt that I couldn't even involve in and the topic they were talking about was not what I know.
Perhaps, the gap between them and I is getting bigger and bigger.
I was trying to fill the gap but it didn't works well.
Maybe the period that I leave them was too long and causes the relationship gap to grow bigger.
I was once frustrated and wanted to go away but it's not in my principle of life.
My leader realized how I felt and told me that this is how I should learn to be more socialize.
Today, the thing I enjoyed the most was Shouting and Singing the song, because everyone was doing the same thing with me, so I didn't have the feel that I'd been abandoned or something.
I know my leader knows what I feel, so to not make me feel that I'd been abandoned or what, she let me do some job.
Am I right to think like this?
or she just want to punish me for being so emo recently?
Nah, what I'm thinking now is 22nd May please come earlier!
I don't want to stuck in this place anymore.
It's not hell or heaven, I think I can't fit in and this place is not mine.
Forgive me for being so straight forward.
Anyway, I'll have my English Presentation next week.
I confirm will elaborate more about the BEST AGE which is 21 y/o---the Golden Key thingy.
My English teacher seems like didn't understand what I meant about the Golden Key and making fun on it.
Well, I'm not saying that my teacher is not serious, but I just don't think it's funny yet it's important because 21 y/o is the turning point of our life!
ciao~~
Today, doing the same thing as in Singing and Shouting.
At least~~~ We had some responds from those pedestrian, they looked at us and asked what were we doing etc.
I'm not as usual as before, quieter ???
Yeah, I didn't talk much with teammates because I felt that I couldn't even involve in and the topic they were talking about was not what I know.
Perhaps, the gap between them and I is getting bigger and bigger.
I was trying to fill the gap but it didn't works well.
Maybe the period that I leave them was too long and causes the relationship gap to grow bigger.
I was once frustrated and wanted to go away but it's not in my principle of life.
My leader realized how I felt and told me that this is how I should learn to be more socialize.
Today, the thing I enjoyed the most was Shouting and Singing the song, because everyone was doing the same thing with me, so I didn't have the feel that I'd been abandoned or something.
I know my leader knows what I feel, so to not make me feel that I'd been abandoned or what, she let me do some job.
Am I right to think like this?
or she just want to punish me for being so emo recently?
Nah, what I'm thinking now is 22nd May please come earlier!
I don't want to stuck in this place anymore.
It's not hell or heaven, I think I can't fit in and this place is not mine.
Forgive me for being so straight forward.
Anyway, I'll have my English Presentation next week.
I confirm will elaborate more about the BEST AGE which is 21 y/o---the Golden Key thingy.
My English teacher seems like didn't understand what I meant about the Golden Key and making fun on it.
Well, I'm not saying that my teacher is not serious, but I just don't think it's funny yet it's important because 21 y/o is the turning point of our life!
ciao~~
Monday, May 16, 2011
OMG
糟糕！
那種感覺又來了。
嫉妒，不爽，很累。
讓，算，怎麼辦。
時時刻刻注意。
不管了。
在還沒有很深的時候，順其自然。
如果我真的真的確定了，我必定會抓住，但是我相信我~~~~心不狠。
我不知道是不是因為不想傷害清醒的我而說出答案。
我好想大聲的問！
但是，想一想我的答案或許只是那一下下的。
心還沒定下來。
就這樣。
另外一件事情。
我很想退出。
退出我不想做的事情。
我承認我後悔了。
雖然只剩1個禮拜，我依然對它沒有心了。
我不喜歡它了。
你可以說我三分鐘熱度還是怎樣。
我只是覺得這種工作很好笑，很像白費力氣的工作（抱歉）。
我越做越一直想，
你們做這麼多，花那麼多錢，爲了就是我們團結。
讓我們認識新朋友。
對！這是我要的。
但是，做的工作不是我預期到的。
它~~~~就是~~~~~你猜咯。=D
我好想安靜的呆在宿舍讀書。
讀那本厚厚的《認識電影》。
我不想再落後了。
傳播與社會也是重要的科目，
我不想因為這些浪費我的時間。
One more thing,
我~~~~聽說了很多對你不同的看法。
我個人覺得你人很好，聊得來，所以選擇與你。
從人嘴巴得知另外一個你，我選擇不相信或只聽就好。
每個人都有自己對另外一件事情的觀點。
或許他是從另外一種視點去觀看你吧！
希望下一年真的能好好的生活。
我要快樂~~~
那種感覺又來了。
嫉妒，不爽，很累。
讓，算，怎麼辦。
時時刻刻注意。
不管了。
在還沒有很深的時候，順其自然。
如果我真的真的確定了，我必定會抓住，但是我相信我~~~~心不狠。
我不知道是不是因為不想傷害清醒的我而說出答案。
我好想大聲的問！
但是，想一想我的答案或許只是那一下下的。
心還沒定下來。
就這樣。
另外一件事情。
我很想退出。
退出我不想做的事情。
我承認我後悔了。
雖然只剩1個禮拜，我依然對它沒有心了。
我不喜歡它了。
你可以說我三分鐘熱度還是怎樣。
我只是覺得這種工作很好笑，很像白費力氣的工作（抱歉）。
我越做越一直想，
你們做這麼多，花那麼多錢，爲了就是我們團結。
讓我們認識新朋友。
對！這是我要的。
但是，做的工作不是我預期到的。
它~~~~就是~~~~~你猜咯。=D
我好想安靜的呆在宿舍讀書。
讀那本厚厚的《認識電影》。
我不想再落後了。
傳播與社會也是重要的科目，
我不想因為這些浪費我的時間。
One more thing,
我~~~~聽說了很多對你不同的看法。
我個人覺得你人很好，聊得來，所以選擇與你。
從人嘴巴得知另外一個你，我選擇不相信或只聽就好。
每個人都有自己對另外一件事情的觀點。
或許他是從另外一種視點去觀看你吧！
希望下一年真的能好好的生活。
我要快樂~~~
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Games - truth
Yesterday went to a "Compulsory" Programme organized by my department at Taipei Library.
The worst day I'd ever had.
Worst as in the weather made me think so. >_<
RAIN! I hate rain yet I hate hot sunny day too.
My umbrella didn't make any use.
It's Soft and errrr stubborn?!
Well, back to the programme, kinda boring and not much fun.
Things that made me in the mood was their FOOD!
Every 2 hours food will be provided. =D
Going back time, my friend and I played GAMES.
Logical Thinking or Critical Thinking game etc.
He quite nice. =D
Night, rehearsal for Thanksgiving to Year four Seniors.
Midnight, chit-chat at Canteen.
Plying Truth or dare without dare.
Everyone telling the truth and the answers were freaking shocked!
Hope that the bond will not change after this.
I know it will be a little bit awkward someday but I'll still ok.
Ciao~
The worst day I'd ever had.
Worst as in the weather made me think so. >_<
RAIN! I hate rain yet I hate hot sunny day too.
My umbrella didn't make any use.
It's Soft and errrr stubborn?!
Well, back to the programme, kinda boring and not much fun.
Things that made me in the mood was their FOOD!
Every 2 hours food will be provided. =D
Going back time, my friend and I played GAMES.
Logical Thinking or Critical Thinking game etc.
He quite nice. =D
Night, rehearsal for Thanksgiving to Year four Seniors.
Midnight, chit-chat at Canteen.
Plying Truth or dare without dare.
Everyone telling the truth and the answers were freaking shocked!
Hope that the bond will not change after this.
I know it will be a little bit awkward someday but I'll still ok.
Ciao~
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
不順利
事情過的很不順利。
金旋獎——越來越覺得自己在這裡沒有什麽“光輝”。Q__Q
僑生周——雖然一切都在last minute 做好，但是傷害了自己的體力和精神。
政大之聲——沮喪的消息，我大學四年都不可能進這唯一讓我有機會實習的電臺。
學業——什麽都還沒做好，覺得這學期好混亂。
系學會活動——由於參加太多活動，廣電周都不參加，感覺與系上的人越來越疏遠。
我到底是怎麼了？
之前自以為安排的很好，結果現在一塌糊塗！
這幾天，眼睛很腫。
走幾步路，心裡莫名酸酸的，自己流淚。
上課也在流，
下課了也莫名的流。
走路去上課也流。
下課回宿舍哽咽嚇到室友。
佈置攤位的時候一直發呆。
走到哪裡都發呆。
結論：我接受不到咯！
心裡一直在掙扎一些事情，但是要說出來也不知是什麽？
政大之聲的失敗我承認對我打擊還蠻大的。
我現在不知道要做什麽。
好希望這五月趕快結束，到六月我只想專心讀書。
再回家。
回家~~~
此地不留人，必有留人處。
我一定會更好。
如果你突然在睡覺的時候想：
我的好朋友到底是誰？
我心情不好或難過的時候，我哦第一個想到的是誰，而我會跟誰講？
我的答案：
腦力出現的面孔不多，但卻沒有定點。
或許上大學就是要獨立吧！
我已經習慣自己一個人走在路上了，感覺超自在。
以前總會覺得孤單，爲什麽我會是一個人的，而別人都是有partner？！
我不管這些了。
謝謝大家的加油和安慰。
謝謝！
金旋獎——越來越覺得自己在這裡沒有什麽“光輝”。Q__Q
僑生周——雖然一切都在last minute 做好，但是傷害了自己的體力和精神。
政大之聲——沮喪的消息，我大學四年都不可能進這唯一讓我有機會實習的電臺。
學業——什麽都還沒做好，覺得這學期好混亂。
系學會活動——由於參加太多活動，廣電周都不參加，感覺與系上的人越來越疏遠。
我到底是怎麼了？
之前自以為安排的很好，結果現在一塌糊塗！
這幾天，眼睛很腫。
走幾步路，心裡莫名酸酸的，自己流淚。
上課也在流，
下課了也莫名的流。
走路去上課也流。
下課回宿舍哽咽嚇到室友。
佈置攤位的時候一直發呆。
走到哪裡都發呆。
結論：我接受不到咯！
心裡一直在掙扎一些事情，但是要說出來也不知是什麽？
政大之聲的失敗我承認對我打擊還蠻大的。
我現在不知道要做什麽。
好希望這五月趕快結束，到六月我只想專心讀書。
再回家。
回家~~~
此地不留人，必有留人處。
我一定會更好。
如果你突然在睡覺的時候想：
我的好朋友到底是誰？
我心情不好或難過的時候，我哦第一個想到的是誰，而我會跟誰講？
我的答案：
腦力出現的面孔不多，但卻沒有定點。
或許上大學就是要獨立吧！
我已經習慣自己一個人走在路上了，感覺超自在。
以前總會覺得孤單，爲什麽我會是一個人的，而別人都是有partner？！
我不管這些了。
謝謝大家的加油和安慰。
謝謝！
Sunday, May 8, 2011
我的出現，帶成不便
今天，我有感而發。
因為，
我的出現，帶成不便。
我想，今天我講話講不到10句。
生活是如此的簡短。
我預想不到我會做這種事情。
沒有預期會有今天，但是我經過了今天。
我不知心裡掙扎什麽，或許這一次（就這一次）真的不是我喜歡的。
眼淚線莫名發達，在聽別人彈奏自己的歌的時候，腦力許多畫面頓時出現。
我就是那麼的莫名。
莫名其妙。
那里，很多人，但我覺得一個都沒有。
那裡，很少人，我卻覺得很多人。
我不算是與眾不同的 ，偏偏在少人的地方我還算有价值。
虽然在多人的地方我与别人不同，但是可以算是没有价值。
这是什么逻辑？
對！是我創的。
我之前喜歡它，但是，我漸漸不喜歡它。
甚至想找很多藉口想避開它。
避開很難，離開更難。
所以我告訴自己，避開不是解決的辦法，面對再解決就一了百了。
做人要有原則。
我曾有個念頭：就是把它說的清清楚楚，好讓我能夠擺脫它。
想了一下，我覺得事情不應該是這樣，因為我不想有個不好的結局。
我不想當自私的人，拋下爛攤子不負責任，畢竟這條路是我選的。
錯就錯在我沒有好好的思考我自己的能力。
都是我。
沒想到，今天當了“省話一姐”。
也好，讓我瞭解自己有多么的不適合在這種場合。
真正的我不是“省話”的，但這場合讓我省話。
都是我。
人際關係真的很重要。
只會面對一小族群是不夠的。
我以後可能還需要面對更多不一樣的人，想必這一次真的是一個很大的磨練。
謝謝你的嚴肅和體諒。
我不恨你，更不討厭你。
從你身上，我看到一個領導者該有的風範。
我想今晚要晚睡，因為我的習慣復發。
心情不好就吃東西。
爲了不讓自己發胖，晚一點睡覺讓胃慢慢的把食物消化也好。
還好，回到宿舍我有笑。
想到下一年，也許是以後，我不會再跟現在的室友一起住，真的有點捨不得。
我們有緣一起住一年，一定還有其他有緣的事情在等著。
因為，
我的出現，帶成不便。
我想，今天我講話講不到10句。
生活是如此的簡短。
我預想不到我會做這種事情。
沒有預期會有今天，但是我經過了今天。
我不知心裡掙扎什麽，或許這一次（就這一次）真的不是我喜歡的。
眼淚線莫名發達，在聽別人彈奏自己的歌的時候，腦力許多畫面頓時出現。
我就是那麼的莫名。
莫名其妙。
那里，很多人，但我覺得一個都沒有。
那裡，很少人，我卻覺得很多人。
我不算是與眾不同的 ，偏偏在少人的地方我還算有价值。
虽然在多人的地方我与别人不同，但是可以算是没有价值。
这是什么逻辑？
對！是我創的。
我之前喜歡它，但是，我漸漸不喜歡它。
甚至想找很多藉口想避開它。
避開很難，離開更難。
所以我告訴自己，避開不是解決的辦法，面對再解決就一了百了。
做人要有原則。
我曾有個念頭：就是把它說的清清楚楚，好讓我能夠擺脫它。
想了一下，我覺得事情不應該是這樣，因為我不想有個不好的結局。
我不想當自私的人，拋下爛攤子不負責任，畢竟這條路是我選的。
錯就錯在我沒有好好的思考我自己的能力。
都是我。
沒想到，今天當了“省話一姐”。
也好，讓我瞭解自己有多么的不適合在這種場合。
真正的我不是“省話”的，但這場合讓我省話。
都是我。
人際關係真的很重要。
只會面對一小族群是不夠的。
我以後可能還需要面對更多不一樣的人，想必這一次真的是一個很大的磨練。
謝謝你的嚴肅和體諒。
我不恨你，更不討厭你。
從你身上，我看到一個領導者該有的風範。
我想今晚要晚睡，因為我的習慣復發。
心情不好就吃東西。
爲了不讓自己發胖，晚一點睡覺讓胃慢慢的把食物消化也好。
還好，回到宿舍我有笑。
想到下一年，也許是以後，我不會再跟現在的室友一起住，真的有點捨不得。
我們有緣一起住一年，一定還有其他有緣的事情在等著。
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Blog When I'm not in a good mood Part 2
加油。
Add Oil.
It's simple to type ADD OIL these two words.
but is it easy to accept?
Thanks for the comforting, I can feel the sincere.
I'm really gonna burst if I don't cry now.
Everything comes in but not going out.
I feel proud with myself once because I think I could manage my time well.
Yeah, I still think it's well though.
but....
Sitting infront of my laptop, facing things I don't wanna face with.
Roommates seem like don't understand me well and they have their things to do.
and I'm as if alone in this small room.
After reading the email from dad, tears came out and it's just like a relief.
Although dad didn't write anything in the mail but posted pictures of us, I can feel the warm.
I don't wanna regret in doing things I choose.
Can say that I'm "perfect" lover?
I want everything to be perfect and do all my job well.
Give and take is the most important thing when there are things clash together.
Sacrifice or not?
No matter how, I stepped into this game and should end it nicely.
I know if I give up now, i will be the enemy of everyone.
As a PERFECT lover, I wish I can go through everything from now on.
Thanks BLOGGER which always accept everything from what I wanna express.
but you will never give any comment or reply on my feeling. *sad*
Whatever, you'll still be my best friend!
I love you BLOGGER. =D *tears*
Add Oil.
It's simple to type ADD OIL these two words.
but is it easy to accept?
Thanks for the comforting, I can feel the sincere.
I'm really gonna burst if I don't cry now.
Everything comes in but not going out.
I feel proud with myself once because I think I could manage my time well.
Yeah, I still think it's well though.
but....
Sitting infront of my laptop, facing things I don't wanna face with.
Roommates seem like don't understand me well and they have their things to do.
and I'm as if alone in this small room.
After reading the email from dad, tears came out and it's just like a relief.
Although dad didn't write anything in the mail but posted pictures of us, I can feel the warm.
I don't wanna regret in doing things I choose.
Can say that I'm "perfect" lover?
I want everything to be perfect and do all my job well.
Give and take is the most important thing when there are things clash together.
Sacrifice or not?
No matter how, I stepped into this game and should end it nicely.
I know if I give up now, i will be the enemy of everyone.
As a PERFECT lover, I wish I can go through everything from now on.
Thanks BLOGGER which always accept everything from what I wanna express.
but you will never give any comment or reply on my feeling. *sad*
Whatever, you'll still be my best friend!
I love you BLOGGER. =D *tears*
Sunday, May 1, 2011
I wanna have a BF
I want to have a BOYFRIEND!!!
You know why I desperate?
@___@
because someone, that I knew last sem through an activity,
Kept on asking me to go out and ask whether I'm available.
I find a lot of reasons to avoid these kind of QUESTIONssss.
know why?
I just couldn't accept lo.
Maybe he just wanna be friend or what, but still I can sense ma!
I don't know he's serious or what.
The story should begin like this:
The day after the activity, he added me as friend in FB.
Then chat like normal friend.
You know la, chatting sure will say something about GF or BF,
so chat chat chat, till the end he say I'm in his LIST.
LIST?!!!
My respond to him was o.O,
then bye, offline, off to bed, and sleep.
After "this case" no more interaction as in no "like" no "comments" those stuff.
This sem, he suddenly active in my FB. =___=
Ask whether I'm available to go out maybe to have a dinner? @.@
I have interview so rejected.
I don't know what reason to give anymore if there's next time.
Therefore, know why I wanna have a boyfriend?
because if I have a REAL BF, I don't need to search for reasons etc.
Can say I'm picky in choosing a BF or anything, just everything depends on the so-called FEEL.
If we both are in a click, then we'll be a great couple.
Haiz, anything.
I don't know why I always want to pretend like I'm superb infront of those guys.
Ego?
lols......
I'm not sure though.
I just wanna be myself.
I'm like this and it's my characteristic or specialty?
I'm sure in this SMALL world I'll have fate with the special one.
=D
Ciao~~
You know why I desperate?
@___@
because someone, that I knew last sem through an activity,
Kept on asking me to go out and ask whether I'm available.
I find a lot of reasons to avoid these kind of QUESTIONssss.
know why?
I just couldn't accept lo.
Maybe he just wanna be friend or what, but still I can sense ma!
I don't know he's serious or what.
The story should begin like this:
The day after the activity, he added me as friend in FB.
Then chat like normal friend.
You know la, chatting sure will say something about GF or BF,
so chat chat chat, till the end he say I'm in his LIST.
LIST?!!!
My respond to him was o.O,
then bye, offline, off to bed, and sleep.
After "this case" no more interaction as in no "like" no "comments" those stuff.
This sem, he suddenly active in my FB. =___=
Ask whether I'm available to go out maybe to have a dinner? @.@
I have interview so rejected.
I don't know what reason to give anymore if there's next time.
Therefore, know why I wanna have a boyfriend?
because if I have a REAL BF, I don't need to search for reasons etc.
Can say I'm picky in choosing a BF or anything, just everything depends on the so-called FEEL.
If we both are in a click, then we'll be a great couple.
Haiz, anything.
I don't know why I always want to pretend like I'm superb infront of those guys.
Ego?
lols......
I'm not sure though.
I just wanna be myself.
I'm like this and it's my characteristic or specialty?
I'm sure in this SMALL world I'll have fate with the special one.
=D
Ciao~~
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