Let it Be

Hi Blogger, It has been 1 year and 3 months I never meet you.
Miss ya much.
As usual, I will look for you when I'm in a mist, because you are my best friend forever.
Anyway, will blog in English to improve myself.

Well, I have graduated from my university.
I learned a lot from there, in all aspects. If you remember, I met a music producer in a recording studio last year. Meeting him made my life changed. I don't have any plan for my future during my last year in uni, I am not an ambitious girl wanting my life to be like a superstar. I have a clear mind to make myself to be one part of this music industry, I want to be part of it. I appreciate a lot to have this opportunity when he showed me the contract.

To be honest, I struggled at first. I had only few days to make a decision. I met my teacher who is also in this industry, I discussed with my family and friends, I talked to myself everyday (well this habit starts when I was in primary school, talking to myself in the mirror, perhaps to build confidence). I signed and agreed.

So now, I got the chance to perform in live house, chance to write songs and sending them to Music company. I try to work hard on it.

I was asked to work at his company, with his girlfriend. Yes, there are three of us in this company. Only. Of course I'll say yes because I don't need to search for job. Well, something awkward happens. My two friends who is under him who are also from Malaysia, I believe they have hard feelings towards me. They choose me, but why not them? I can't explain much because I don't think it helps yet it will making the situation to be more awkward as well. So, I will be the listener, I will do my position as a Friend. Things go neutral as time pass.

They told me what they think. I listened.
It's about the music producer.
Well, let me describe what am I doing in my work, it's more administrative rather than music. I worked for 2 months and don't even have time to sing because everyday is tiring.
I know, to be a small tiny little part of this music industry, we must have our own music related CV, I'm still in Workhard-mode to accumulate experiences. Do you think I can blogger?
Can you tell me what am I going to do for my PLAN B?

I can't always rely on a single-track, I need to have many tracks to walk on my own road. but now, I'm single, although it is like WOW you have your future, but how many percentage is it? It's  not a mathematics question, it's a Yes or NO.

I tell myself, now is like a bet in a casino, I bet my own life by choosing this path. UNKNOWN. The only way to make this path look smooth is to improve myself and believe in faith and luck. How much percentage then? 1%? 100%?

You know what I mean or not Blogger?

Now I was like losing this friend. It's a competitive game like the Hunger Games. I win the 2 malaysian friends, but I lose in friendship. Well, not that we are not friends anymore, but there will always be a crack-mark between us, you know?!

The worse thing is life is you can't see anything but you can feel something hard, THE INVINCIBLE WALL!

You know what I mean or not Blogger?