Addicted or spoiled

Am I addicted or spoiled?
Gosh alcohol is not a toy
To my honest, I don't like the smell but I like the effect
Once my friend told me that people staying in the city are all facing a kind of city pressures? I think so. Is it because of the high competition between our peeps? Everyone wants to be the unique one. So alcohol helps you to forget things that you think you shouldn't do and helps you to increase excitement and to be very open.
but I believe one day these people will get bored and wanted to stop everything. Yes, am trying to stop. Once, I sit beside the dancing pool, looking at everyone there imagining myself inside there like a crazy girl (xiao zah boh), I asked myself, so what did I got? so what did I gained? so what did I learned?
Wasted up my time in a closed building and my earned money.
Nonsense!
All these questions will then burst out into lots of bubbles and disappear.
When you did something, you will try to do some other thing to cover it up, as a comfort I guess. So, I play with music. Well of course music is my life, just that I do a little bit more than before. I don't know is it MORE than before because it's just some cheap cake, but at least I did what I never do before, right?
Anyways, do what you want to do when you are young!

I hope if you are reading this, just read it and forget about it.