人因夢想而長大
但是往往就是會被種種原因限制了你
我知道我很容易說氣話，但是我仍然會努力的去做我要做的事
只是我很討厭現在的自己 一無所有
什麽畢業前一定要修的大學四學分 簡直是屁
付出那麼多的勞力得來的卻是那麼一點點的小錢
我知道人生不能總是想著不勞而獲
所以我努力的活著努力的靠自己的能力賺一點點
我討厭資本主義 所有事情總是“錢”
我當初的初衷到底在哪裡？
對於大學的憧憬到底在哪裡？
靠 我真的很想哭
家人說我每次都不主動找他們聊天
找了還不是簡單幾句
姐姐whatsapp給他們就想說她自己一個人在印度是不是太孤單？
我呢？難道你沒有想過嗎？
是，我常在fb po文，但你有沒有想過我爲什麽這麼愛po？
我只是使用另一種方式讓別人可以注意我！
爲什麽到了這個階段我突然會停下來？
我開始不瞭解自己了
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Monday, March 11, 2013
不要這麼容易付出真心
有一次有人告訴我
“不要這麼容易付出真心”
不要這麼容易讓一個人看透你的心
越是捉摸不定越是個難搞的東西
這樣才有挑戰性
我認真覺得自己一直把我的保護層削薄
唉~~
加油好嗎
我也不想的
“不要這麼容易付出真心”
不要這麼容易讓一個人看透你的心
越是捉摸不定越是個難搞的東西
這樣才有挑戰性
我認真覺得自己一直把我的保護層削薄
唉~~
加油好嗎
我也不想的
Sunday, March 10, 2013
Hate this feeling
AGAIN again and AGAIN!!!
I hate this feeling
Being alone in my room with 3 empty tables, 3 empty chairs, 3 empty beds!
Roommates go back to their Taiwan home every weekends
leaving me alone in this silent and full-of-things room.
I wish to have my own privacy
yet now I have
Talk so much some more
Whatever
Back to the day before yesterday.
Was so regret that I never leave my contact
and now we loss contact
maybe that person doesn't want to?
gosh...What the hell am I thinking and acting?!
Drug shouldn't be exist in this world!
because I got 'addicted' already!
gosh... I wish to end it fast
to live stably.
Telling myself that to make yourself happier is to be confident
I'm making myself busy and no relation life
What the hell am I doing?
I seriously need a shoulder
I don't want my self-esteem to get even higher to prove to people that I can live on my own
What the hell am I acting?
I seriously is a good actress who could act like I'm very good
I'm just as if a lamb covered with wolf skin, AS IF okay! think in other ways.
I'm just tired.
I need a shoulder and ears to lie on and listen to me.
WISH.
Everything is only WISH.
Birthday wish.
Praying wish.
Don't expect it will come true!
Face the reality.
These are the FACTS!
Gosh...What the hell am I typing?
What the hell am I thinking now?
K BYE
ciao~~
I hate this feeling
Being alone in my room with 3 empty tables, 3 empty chairs, 3 empty beds!
Roommates go back to their Taiwan home every weekends
leaving me alone in this silent and full-of-things room.
I wish to have my own privacy
yet now I have
Talk so much some more
Whatever
Back to the day before yesterday.
Was so regret that I never leave my contact
and now we loss contact
maybe that person doesn't want to?
gosh...What the hell am I thinking and acting?!
Drug shouldn't be exist in this world!
because I got 'addicted' already!
gosh... I wish to end it fast
to live stably.
Telling myself that to make yourself happier is to be confident
I'm making myself busy and no relation life
What the hell am I doing?
I seriously need a shoulder
I don't want my self-esteem to get even higher to prove to people that I can live on my own
What the hell am I acting?
I seriously is a good actress who could act like I'm very good
I'm just as if a lamb covered with wolf skin, AS IF okay! think in other ways.
I'm just tired.
I need a shoulder and ears to lie on and listen to me.
WISH.
Everything is only WISH.
Birthday wish.
Praying wish.
Don't expect it will come true!
Face the reality.
These are the FACTS!
Gosh...What the hell am I typing?
What the hell am I thinking now?
K BYE
ciao~~
Friday, March 8, 2013
變
爲什麽我最近都有種“好不想再讀書”的感覺？
從小我們就一直學東西，以前的我還覺得以後我會是讀書的好學生
因為我就是對一切事物好奇，可以學習當然好
最近不知怎的，心已經不在讀書
越來越我行我素 想做什麽就沖著做
根本不想把太多心思放在學業上
明明規劃好要弄得東西 卻可以一直拖，拖到比黃河還要長。
我知道也自身經歷過 LAST MINUTE WORK will never ends up in good ending
但是我就是這種人
很想改 但改不了
每次想到要做一樣事情的時候 就很容易放棄很容易就說服自己說“明天再弄吧”
我要做我想做的事情
好煩
大學加油
從小我們就一直學東西，以前的我還覺得以後我會是讀書的好學生
因為我就是對一切事物好奇，可以學習當然好
最近不知怎的，心已經不在讀書
越來越我行我素 想做什麽就沖著做
根本不想把太多心思放在學業上
明明規劃好要弄得東西 卻可以一直拖，拖到比黃河還要長。
我知道也自身經歷過 LAST MINUTE WORK will never ends up in good ending
但是我就是這種人
很想改 但改不了
每次想到要做一樣事情的時候 就很容易放棄很容易就說服自己說“明天再弄吧”
我要做我想做的事情
好煩
大學加油
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