Different feeling of Wanting

I realized my English got worsen, so I decided to blog using English.
No direct translate, use proper English okay.

We can crave for what we want mentally, but we must not taking it for granted that you WILL definitely have it.
To get what you want you must first understand why do you want it?
I know too many reasons or analysis will make ourselves confuse at the end,
it's just like buying a swimming suit last week.
Compare with the HUI JUN last time, I will hesitate and think a lot of pros and cons of buying a swimming suit, isn't it tiring? So, I made up my mind before buying, I told myself :"when you found one that really suits you, then buy."
Tadah, I did it and I really love my swimming suit.
Well it's the same when you meet new friend, new environment.
Understand why do you want it is just a simple beginning of accepting new things.

"Definite" is confidence? scary?
There shouldn't have definite answers in life, in ones feeling.
Well, except those mathematics and theoretical questions.
We might change our mind or we might persist towards something
It's not definite that you're happy now and you'll happy forever
Why a pretty girl will be a tomboy the other year?
I believe there are reasons behind them or maybe not?
Sometimes I really wish that I can read people's mind, but sometimes i prefer to brush it aside by not thinking this and that.
SEE! I'm not a definite girl because I always add a "BUT" after saying something.
I should be like my roommate/course mate/best friend --- When you decided something don't always try to turn it over and still hesitating. Follow your first instinct.

Rational vs Emotional
Obviously Emotional wins when I'm facing 'emotional' matters.
I cant be myself when it hits me, well it's the me last time.
The me NOW, I prefer to BE MYSELF.
Make yourself comfortable and real rather than hiding yourself.

Wasai! I really don't have the ability to say some theoretical or inspiring things like those writers.
It's hard to express the feeling by saying it out, so i prefer to type it out.
Ciao~