Thoughts

I got cold yesterday.
Serious flu, attacked by an unknown virus.
Sneezed in every class.
Was like a torture. Can't even breathe properly.
Interrupted the class.
sigh...
Went to the debate competition at night,
UniTEN vs NEC.
UniTEN won NEC lost.
10.30 finished.
Ask whether still need to practice.
I went there for a while.
not even a while, 5 minutes.
I was thinking:
"Do they really need a keyboard player? They made me think that I'm not suppose to be here. And, I don't even know the members' name. The members also don't know who am I and my name. walao, I really speechless already. .__. "
So, should I just quit?!
Was thinking to join 飞乐合唱团.
but, nah, just forget about it,
I will not stay in NEC for so long.
Just make remain it as a QUESTION MARK.

ciao~~

She's just normal

Don't you feel guilty if you talk bad about someone behind his/her back.
Which mean you played a roll as a backstabber!
Well, here is an example.

A girl/woman (should I call her woman?),
anyway, just female. =.=
She's 26 years old.
Studied in my Diploma class.
The people in our class (perhaps I'm included ><) seems like to leave her alone
a.k.a boycott her.
Her name is something something xian~~
Can't remember sorry.
The only thing I remember is that she come from Sepang.
And her previous job was a secretary in a so called company.
Lols, I wonder what company is that.
Of course, I'm still not a professional to ask so many questions,
so better leave it behind.

SHE, in every class, sat ALONE.
slept ALONE.
Although there's group presentation or discussion, but I believe that she didn't join in the discussion and never talk even 5 sentences.
Of course, my group was FULLED every time, so the other group have to Choose her. ><
But, recently, last few weeks,
she didn't attend any classes at all.
Guess she already drop-out.

OK, so what's the point I talk about her?
Well, that's just an example, no offensiveness.
I just feel bad when I talk bad about someone and they don't know about it.

Another case,
do you know how I will get angry???
When someone message you and talk something which is totally unrelated to YOU!
I feel like, who the hack I am and why you want to tell me what to do but for other person.
Can't you just take action to the person directly rather than through me?!
So now I'm the Orang Tengah a.k.a middle person?!!
When did I say I wanna be the middle person?!!

Full of question marks and anger!
Whatever, the thing I need to do now is PRAY!!
PRAY for something I really want NOW!!!

确定：“不是”

林慧君，我真的有时觉得你很收皮哩！
你太看得起你自己了吧！
算了。
本小姐现在很想“静”休。
最笨的人不是我！是你啊！
死笨蛋！
=.=
算了，我说的话，
只有我懂！
这里只是发泄的地方！
别人的迷可以解，
我的迷就算是我消失了也解不了！
永远都解不了！
之前的post我已说了，
我就只有默默的说“算了！”

死笨蛋！
死笨蛋！
(╰_╯)#

因为：“不是”

原来如此。是我想太多了。 .______.
因为：“不是”。 .____.

“不” 是一个非常 negative 的字。
所以，它让我觉得它好残忍。
假如，你向人求救，他立刻说“不！”
你知道有多伤人吗？
更让人伤透底的事情是，
他连“不”都不用说,
你就知道答案是“不”。

不知怎的，心情说变就变。
之前可以哈哈大笑，之后就可以冷冷酷酷。
我就是这样。Mood Swing.
思维，让人的心情变化。
我就是点到了那个点，心情才会如此。
这算是缺点吗？

话说缺点，中学时期，还蛮流行玩《缺点游戏》。
还记得朋友说我的缺点就是：
1. “串”
2. 不顾人家感受（讲话），也就是很直。
3. 脾气

好，回归正题。
当你知道答案是“不是”的时候，
你会怎样？
但是，没有人说“不是”的哦，
是你自己觉得“不是”或者从一个地方你探查到答案原来是“不是”的。

你知道我会怎样吗？
我会自己默默地说算了。
我不会想要去进一步的追求我要的答案。
这就是我，
一个字 “弱”！
弱不是physical 弱，是mentally 弱。
思想很容易被打败。.____.
这样的性格，我能成功吗？
自己的意见被人盖掉了，我竟然可以不为自己辩论。
其实这就是所谓的 Lack of confidence. 缺乏自信心。

看了我blog 的人，应该会说你少讲话啦！
你不知道自己有多吵哦？！
哈哈。是啦，我是多话点但是，有料吗？
还有，我多话都是在差不多熟的朋友面前啊！

现在，我好像宅女哦！
上完课就回宿舍，根本没社交、应酬！
我不是酱的哩！
以前，什么都参加；
现在，什么都没有。
以前，遇到人至少有几个打招呼；
现在，遇到人没有一个打招呼。
或许，在马来校就读的人比较殷勤；
在华人多的地方就读的人就比较“懒死”？
哇靠，自己人讲自己人。XD
"@"

林慧君！
你好嘢！
竟然是这样的！
掰掰！

Laziness

I'm getting lazier and lazier.
Blogging also lazy already.
See the previous post, SHORT.
That's all for today's NO POINT post.

~~~~muahahahahaha~~~~~

一天过了

一天，又过了。
我，又失败了。
T_______T
率次的失败，
让我想放弃。
失败了3次，
我无可奈何。
请问啊请问，
我到底在干嘛？

撇开它，说别的。
晚上7时，去了I-Do的聚会。
有的吃就吃，
有的玩就玩，
有的唱就唱。
我还中招了。
头发变得有奶油味。
又油！
喔！算了！
回去冲了凉，
就ok.
这个post,
好好笑，
因为它，
NO POINT!

~~~HAHAHAHAHAHA~~~

Transparent

I hate this feeling.
To be a transparent person.
Just say NO if you really can't make it.
You made me got nowhere to stand or sit or to dig a hole and hide inside!!!
I was sitting in the middle.
Eating by my own.
You guys were talking.
Without notice the existence of me!
I know I'm not that close with you guys,
buy, at least YOU tell me that you had already planned to go out with them.
I forced myself to look like I was OK.
Fine. I got no mood now.

Find for some piano Scores.
Hikari - Kingdom Hearts 1
Dearly Beloved - Kingdom Hearts 1
Passion - Kingdom Hearts 2
Kiss The Rain - Yiruma
Moonlight Sonata - Beethoven

L

"L"
My sure name starts from L
I called him as L in Form 3
There's another L in my course.
L is for Leisure Mall
L is the guy in Death Note
L is so popular.
L is for learning
L is for "L" license.
Lure starts from L
I was a Liar before.
L is for Leader.
A lot more.
=)

Precious Time

Time is precious.
I missed lots of things because I didn't manage my TIME well.
Not to say that I don't even manage.
I tried, but still I took long time to finish something which is scheduled.
Today, I feel left out again.
I was out from the class.
I have to do those apply thingy.
Nobody helped me last week to mark attendance.
I shouldn't blame them, because that's not their business and
WHO AM I???!!!
What are their benefits to help me???

Back to yesterday,
I gave up something.
SOMETHING!
I made a very very big decision.
The answer is "NO"!!
Therefore, I 'talked' to myself,
:" You should be firm to your decision, once it's made, don't regret because that's your decision. Nobody can help you to change it even god."
So, I will not regret. I told myself.
NO REGRETS.
=)

I have to study now.
A very very important examination is waiting for me.
=D

Ways to go

Blogger~~~~
127th post.
I signed up to blogspot when I was in Form 2, but I gave up because I didn't know what to write/type.
In Form 4, I signed up again at the end of the year.
My first post was kinda lame.
Now, 2/5/2010,
this is my 127th POST!
Who cares right?!

Well, I always run out of topic.
So, today's title is ways to go.
What's the purpose I set this title?
LOLS... Frankly speaking, there's no purpose.
Just feel like want to express something out, but it's kinda hard to be explained by words.
Em...I don't really have contents for this post.
Well, let's share some photos. =)

That's me with SHORT SHORT hair...

OK, no more...lols...No new pics recently...
Ciao. =)