Jealousy

ARGH!!! I'm now in Jealous mood.
I'm not pretty,
I'm not gorgeous.
I'm just not to everything!

Why? I'm jealous after reading those things.
Why would it be?
It should be mine but i let it go.
It shouldn't be yours but you grab it from me.
I'm not blaming you but to say that,
if you do not exist, perhaps there's still a chance for me RIGHT!
I feel really wasteful as I really like it before.
Before!!!
but I didn't tell it. T_______________T
I just ignore it wherever it is.
I regretted after some scenario happened.
but why it don't ask?!!!
It pretend that I already don't want it.
It just PRETEND, it didn't ask me!!!
T_____________T
If it ask face to face, I would consider maybe after SPM?!
I know you 'things' cannot tahan those lonely time,
so, simply go and mix with other creature and met new ONE!!
I'm so angry and so SPEECHLESS after I got those news.
So, til now, no more creature come to me.
because, they Scared. WTF!!!!
I really hope that I can go oversea to pursue my tertiary studies and forget these things!!!
I wanna change into new leaf,
I wanna proof that you made the wrong decision,
I wanna make you regret,
I wanna make you feel sorry,
I wanna meet new creature!!!!!!
C~R~E~A~T~U~R~E~

Am I really a problematic girl??

心情很容易就被打败。

我放弃了一样东西，当我再回头看它时，突然很不悦。

我妒忌被我放弃的东西，竟然被别人要了。

好好笑哦，我竟然这么的~~~矛盾。请原谅我的幼稚。:(

别以为我不哭，其实，哭的最多的人，就是我。
我痛恨在别人面前哭，哭做么？
博同情？
死了才有人同情你吧！

你会明白吗？
说来说去，只有我自己懂，
说真的，我是位很难express自己的感觉给别人听的女生。
真的很想，总有一天告诉一个我真真真真真的相信的人。
几时，到底几时才是适合的时间？！！
我还能渴望多久？
不知道为什么，自从Form3 那一段路之后，
我，有所畏避。
一直不敢开多一条路了。
=)


每次，自己一个人在弹钢琴。
认识我的人知道的啦，
爱发梦的我，爱看偶像剧的我，
在弹钢琴的当儿，
一直希望有个人可以默默的在背后支持我，
欣赏那只有我可弹出来的歌。
但是，这种画面好像只有花花世界，偶像世界才会有吧。
我这种稻草不是花的人，平凡不是偶像的人，
看来等了一百年也等不到吧！
观众，可能就只有我一个人。
听众，可能就是我或则那个时钟。



算了，说别的。
I'm going back to school on Monday with formal attire.
Then, will go to New Era after that.
Tuesday and Wednesday not going to school.
Schedule kinda fulled!!