UNDERSTOOD...

It's 12.40a.m. now...
I'm still awake and UNDERSTOOD everything...
everything...YES!!! Just part of the everything...=.=
If you ask me how's my friendship???
ONE WORD-----> "WEIRD"
ANOTHER TWO WORD-----> "ONE KIND"
Everyone seems has their own problem...
I have LOTS..LOTS and LOTSSSSS!!!

This year(2008) was the most unmemorable year...
I was like offended everyone, even the god!!!
Am i really nuts???
Am i really that selfish???
Am i really an eye-sore???
Am i really that unreasonable???
Am i really that unsatisfied in everyone's???
Am i so easily misunderstood???
***CONCLUSION = I'M not really like that***

There was been many conflict that was still unresolved( It's UNCOUNTABLE!!)
Crystal's case - I don't think it will end up before our graduation...
She's totally difficult to communicate...
She always misunderstand me since form 3...
I don't think she will talk to me anymore...
I feel so depressed because "its better to be a friend than an enemy":(

After reading all my friends blogs, I started to think...
It's not the best time to explain but is the best time to understand and apologize...
Maybe....
Maybe...
Maybe...
I should apologize on what i DID,SAID,ACT in this year to all my friends...

SORRY for what i DID that made all of you feels that I'm annoying...
SORRY for what i SAID that hurts all of you by not thinking others feelings...
SORRY for the way i ACT in front of all of you like I'm the boss that everyone has to suit me...

I'm so regret that I should not start all those EMO Stuff and acting like everything is normal!!!
I'm so regret that my weakness appear all together...
I'm so regret to be so sensitive...
I'm so regret that i think too much...
I'm so regret that i jealous...
I'm so regret that i ACT...
I'm so regret that HUI JUN doesn't play her roll well this year....
I'm so regret that I didn't explain earlier...so,less misunderstanding....

I hope there's no EXPLANATION for the last last year in my secondary life...
but SHARING and UNDERSTANDING...

I know it's too late to apologize...
but it's still early to take care of our relationship...
Although it's separated, but if your heart still there...
everything will be like normal and HAPPY...

YES!!! My tears dropping down one by one...
but I'm truly appreciate what I have...
I have all the things people should have...
I NEED A BRAND NEW LIFE...
Hope everything goes easily and happily next year...
顺其自然...