單身

剛剛洗完澡吹著頭髮的時候，
莫名的我頭髮與往常不一樣，手摸時很不順又有點打結（因為還濕濕的）。
但是我就是很不爽這感覺啦。

吹著吹著，很自然的跟我室友冒出一句：“我覺得我大學這4年都會單身耶。”
她還安慰我說：“不要這樣想。”

我自己講出來了也覺得好笑
吹頭髮就吹呀，想什麽單身啊？！
我覺得我真的需要好好plan整個畢業之前要做的東西。
有太多東西我想學想弄了啦！
就算單身也要單身的有意義！I don't care.

首先最重要的是賺錢。
錢不是萬能，但是沒錢是萬萬不能的啊！

剛剛節目製作管理課請來了一位三立行銷部門的學姐，
原來所有的八卦、所有的緋聞、所有的新聞都是經過他們策劃和製造的。
敬佩敬佩
但是當行銷還真不賴，可以親近藝人瞭解他們
只是很多brainstorming 的東西，絞盡腦汁想梗真的不容易
無中生有，把一件很普通的事情搞得轟轟烈烈；
把一位不出名的演員捧紅
她說要想出梗，就要趁現在在大學多參與社團辦活動
說真的也是啦！

她還說她公司有很多“敗犬”，我笑了
但是如果我走這行會是嗎？
算了，來個近期看看我肩長的頭髮吧！=)

Days with joy

Finished filming last weekend for the ASUS competition.
Such a relief. =)

From Monday's examination, I know that without practicing one will not success.
Yeah, I knew it since young. Duh~~
I passed the second studio recording test after failing the first one.
That time I was not in a good mood because an important document was lost.
Luckily I did it smoothly without any mistakes although my hands were trembling nervously sitting infront of the examiner.
It's just the same as learning guitar.
I used 3 days to learn a song and obviously this is an impossible mission eventhough if you have the basic in music. I know what to press and know how to sing, but I just need another 3 seconds to change from one chord to another. My fingers were red in pain, fingernails were short and nail polish gone off like I don't care.
I cared my fingernails since my first year in Uni, for this 3 minutes short video I got to sacrifice my hardly-grow-long fingernails to be shorten. T___T
BUT! at least I know how to play guitar and I growing interest towards it. =)

Today I went to Yilan.
Doing charity activities with children.
Some of them were shy and some were hyperactive.
A girl name Ting Ting was like fell in love with me. LOL
She loved to stick with me whenever I go.
Then, she have to go to other place with her same age of friends.
She didn't want because she wanted to be with me.
So, guess what I said?



Ha, you must go to the other library, if not the teacher will get angry and I don't know how to help you.
She got scared and go out cutely and asked me to go and find her after I finished my work.

That's it for the joyful day I passed trough.
Do what you want without any hesitation.

交錯複雜

大二



爲什麽我越來越想自己一個人，但是又不想一個人。
很矛盾的心理問題。




有時候我很享受獨自一人輕鬆自在，但是輕鬆的時候又會想很多爲什麽我是一個人的？
心情就是這麼的交錯複雜。

就好像我很想睡覺，但是腦里一直不讓我睡。

糟！鼻子酸酸的，眼睛水水的，喉嚨緊緊的。
這是自然現象，無需解釋爲什麽的。



需要發洩的時候我突然覺得沒有對象可以說。
雖然最近很開心，但是卻沒有一個真的真的能夠讓我真情流露的。
人們都說不要去等，直接去爭取。
要爭取我一定會，但是在社會關係要我去爭取是件難事。


我需要多一點的經驗。
就這樣，先讓我獨自一人的出去吧！


Perhaps 這讓我思考能力變強。
還有我要增強我的中文能力，很糟。

ciao~~

人群中的我

我...
喜歡...



因為...
我...
依然喜歡...




這是一篇很長的故事。
我好久沒有說故事了。
傳院第一次咖啡時光，我去了。
主要原因不在於當天的主題，是...........食物！
窮大學生有免費FREE 的又好吃的食物當然不能錯過。
雖然老師都看得出這群學生的陰謀。
我沒有後悔當天去咖啡時光，更不會吃完東西就拍屁股走人。
我很負責任的聽完當天ASUS的講座。
最後一部份才是重點，一項比賽。
我們這一組都是來自不同背景的人但擁有同樣的理想。

有順序和效率的把每一樣東西弄完，
每一次開會都一定會到，跟其他的完全不同。
ASUS選出入圍的10組，我們是其中一組。
雖然比賽規則不斷更改，組內也不斷的在互相討論，我們依然不放棄。

策劃了1星期，拍攝需用2天。
策劃是人生中很重要的知識。
今天星期六我們到西門町拍外景。
這是我人生中第一次那麼勇敢在這麼多人來往的城市，自彈自唱。
被打燈的我臉更有色彩了，在鏡頭前的我變成是日常生活中不一樣的我。
被化妝的臉讓我更覺得自己漂亮（愛美是女人的天性）。
所有的外在被打包得那麼的好，但是Show出來的時候卻是那麼的僵硬。
NG了很多次都是因為我的緊張，都是因為我的擔心（彈錯），都是環境的吵雜等等。
大家的包容讓我更不好意思，只有happy是最不會掩飾的人，直接把“不爽”擺在臉上。
這是第二次演戲，第一次沒有臺詞，第二次挑戰廣東話和表情部份。
在西門町街頭上，我們都被經過的路人吸引著，有的拿相機拍我們，有的真的把我當明星拍我彈吉他。也有一群學生很突然的跑到我前面看我彈吉他，表情單純驚訝好奇，讓我很想笑XD

我們這一組的組員，本來的不熟變得更熟，大家互相瞭解大家的脾氣和性格。
有直率、有不說但一說就是重點、有很多想法，總之就是一個綜合所有東西的組合。
明天希望是殺青日，把3分鐘的影片拍完我們就可以吃大餐！

先這樣，很累了。
明天加油。

ciao~~

不能墮落

學業第一okay?!!!!

以前讀書的精神快點出來！
學業還是第一!!!!
最近浪費了很多時間，自己的良心也過意不去。

頭上綁彩帶中)。
fighting.

=)

19th Birthday

Thanks to everyone who wished me.
I'm blessed. =)
Seriously I was shocked to have chocolate as present.
Thanks 垂華 for the cheese cake, you're the first one who gave me something. lols...Go to your friend's wedding la .XD
Thanks to everyone who celebrated for me.
Hot cocoa, chocolate etc.
Thanks YES for calling me to ask where's my room to give me a box of chocolate as present.
Surprisingly we chat for more than 1 hour i guess. XD
Thanks to my roommates who gave a little cute surprise with cute candles singing birthday song with cute voice when I opened the door of my room.
Thanks to you guys who wished me in FB.

Birthday is just another turning point of my life.
I'm officially 19!
One more year to experience teenage lfe!
Competitions, games, outings, crazy stuffs all I want!

Ok, study is still in the first place.
I'm not a book worm yet I will still study hard.
I'm not a genius or a clever person, I'm just smart in handling hard stuff.
I'm not pretty nor ugly, I'm just special.
I'm not praising myself because this is what we should have -- confidence. XD

Trying not to think some sensitive stuffs, everything is gonna be 順其自然.
I'm not going to fantasize my future.
So fake.
but, I still will fantasize. =.=
So lame.

I love yoga!
My heartbeat gone faster eventhough I didn't run!
That's what I want.
Run makes me feel tired, yoga too.
I prefer yoga because it's all about FOCUSING!

I love me.
I'm not selfish because to love all of you I have to love me first. =)
I love you.

ciao~~

The end of October

Everything has an end.
It is just because they want to meet another new starting point.
Calender and time are good examples.
There are no return ways.
They can be said to be parallel because no intersection for parallel, only perpendicular will have intersection.
@@ Maths pulak.
Anyways the purpose of reminding myself about these parallel or intersection is because I did something that shouldn't be wrong.
Try to imagine the graph of parallel line and perpendicular line, I prefer parallel line.
It can be straight or bent like those frequency waveforms.

I faced bent line now because there are some obstacles.
I'm thinking about the reasons to solve this problem with various types of possibilities.
This mistake is not that obvious yet I'm sure some people will realize and ask.
Okay this is one case.

I'm gonna start my Principle of Life again.
No regrets. No "I should...". No "aiya...". No "Last time hor...".
This is because there are no return WAYS! As what I said in the first paragraph.
The main thing to do is to solve the problem.
If everyone thinks the same thing, life would be better.
Comparison can be made of course yet it should be used in proper method.
I don't know how proper it should be, but it just must be proper.
LOL.

Should life be planned earlier? or Should we live without planning our future?
Different people different style, some human with second choice can live happily but they will have to face a lot of problematic things if they are unlucky.
First choice might belongs to most of the human on earth.
To have a boyfriend/girlfriend, to have their marriage at 20++ age, to have their first condo at XX age etc.
These can be Dream yet it is still consider to be well Planned.
Triumph and failure in live is due to the attitude of the human itself.

Okay, today's principle of life is kinda serious.
It's about the whole YOU, future YOU.
Human! Wake up!
Ciao~~

As busy as I can

Resolution set.
I'm really-seriously busy this semester.
Working with people that is in different frequency with me is like HELL.
Working with people who gives infinities reasons is like HELL.
Working with people who gives many ideas but will not be materialized is like HELL.
Working with people who gives dark-smelly-ugly face is like HELL.
Working with people who never do time management is like HELL.

If you think you are as busy as the Prime Minister, don't study here then.
Everytime showing pity face wishing that I can do work more than you do.
Ewww......SHIT! 
I seriously met my obstacle this sem.

People say The must and biggest 4 credits in your Uni life:
1. Academic
2. Co-curricular
3. Love
4. Work

I need number......ehem...both.
Prefer 3.
Die la.
This sem damn shuei xiao, nothing special and I'm just an old woman now.
Why my Freshman year and this year freshman so much different?!
We were like nothing last year. Is it?

I guess so.
Well, yesterday I slept for 2 hours only.
Miracle! Editing my Sem work.

Okay ciao~

愛自己也要愛別人

愛自己的方式就是任意的放縱自己瘋狂的血拼、不顧一切的做自己愛做的事情、累了就想休息之不顧別人的眼光、天天迷戀著理想中的自己、毫不猶豫的喜歡自己喜歡的人。

愛別人的方式就是每一分每一秒都是八卦的想挖出別人的料、害羞的有時候不敢看著別人的眼睛、看到別人和別的女人一起心中有股恨意、聽到別人跟你說說甜言蜜語卻有種愛意。

這是真的。
女人都是口是心非的，研究也應該研究不出女人的大腦到底是怎麼運作。
前天瘋狂的寵自己，是的，因為我愛自己。
有時候一句：“好久不見”足以代表一切。
語言真是一門技巧啊！

張愛玲的“愛”是陳年舜的最愛。
我都被她的愛給礙著了。XD
她愛張愛玲寫的那麼優美；我愛張愛玲寫的那麼的虛假。
虛假得讓我覺得非常有意思。
真的很假！No offense kay. >_<
一對人一輩子和對方講的話就只有：“唷，你也在這裡。” ，因此他們彼此相戀和想念。
看電影電視劇最不爽的就是，彼此相戀的戀人基於種種原因卻沒有跟對方在一起。
結局之後一臉疑惑的問身旁人爲什麽？他們的回答也都是“不一定要在一起的啊！”。
這是現代人的想法？
那我是古代人。

我不愛看星座也不常討論星座。
但是我要老實說天蝎座的人在感情上非常的敏感。
我身旁很多天蝎人都是一個個的樣本給我看。
心中複雜的不知自己在想什麽，也不知怎麼表達。
我甚至可以說：“你信不信我跟你講真話其實都是假話？”
其實那時候我想接這一句，因為我要說的你不能聽，只有你不能。
不過我以：“因為我不會（I don't know）講。” 帶過。
是我笨還是你笨，是我吧！
我不想用這一次來形容自己，但是我還是得用。
看電視劇，港劇還是偶像劇，聽到最HURT的一詞就是這一詞——“一廂情願”。
有時很想對自己罵髒話！@#￥%（￥# 搞屁哦！

小時候愛幻想以後的自己，現在我不敢了。
腳踏實地做好自己該做的，一切“講罷了嗎”都是講罷了。

“好久不見”

I Love my life now

I love my life now!

Finally I did what I thought of.

Yoga Club:
I love it so so so much.
Stretching my whole body and relaxing each and every part of my bone joints, making my mind blank are the best thing ever in my hectic Uni life.
Pay for NTD1000 for one semester is so damn worthwhile and perhaps it will be refunded back if I did my job well as one of the Club's administrator.
Hope that Yoga could make my life better.
I do really sweat while stretching and holding myself in place to do some absolutely-relaxing-yet-difficult moves. Anyways I hope it really helps to shape my body. XD

Exercising is the most important thing to keep on moving and to be healthier =X
LOL. The lazy-pig now is talking nonsense saying that exercise is important.
I'm sure if I say it out loud to anyone of my friends or family, they'll think I'm bluffing and don't put any hope on my determination.
Well, if you guys really do, it's ok.
It is now not appropriate to talk much because it's still in progress.
Wait lah! wait until I really had some changes I'll dare and say it out lout to everyone in the world.
I'm not going to show off but to prove:
世界上沒有醜女人，只有懶女人！
HAHA. If I success I will really say it out loud, maybe 2 years later?!
That's my goal! and find a MAN full of confidence.
Craving for man. lols... The women here are all like that @@

Working in Office of International Cooperation is my first SERIOUS job I have had.
Thank god I have a good-mummy-like Secretary to be my boss.
My timetable is fulled and surprisingly I don't have anytime to go out for shopping like last year.
I online shopping for the first time ever in my life.
OMG! There are so many FIRST time in my Sophomore year.
First time joining a competition with a group of dream-catchers.
We need to make a short video using the Title they'd given.
The prizes are awesome, I guess it will be competitive.
Confidence! I believe we can.

And yeah, mummy!
Get well soon. =D

Ciao~~

再一次的瘋狂

最近就是很少睡眠。
通通都是因為操場惹的禍。
最近真的愛上政大操場，躺在那裡看著天上的星星又舒服又自在，無憂無慮。
沒想到一餐晚餐可以拖延到12點凌晨。
從拿不定主意的晚餐，到什麽都聊的操場，再到距離遠心不遠的永和豆漿。
突然發覺我的大學生活在大二才真正開始。
不是因為熬夜才算是大學生，而是因為能夠有個可以聊得很開的團體，這是大學生。
剛剛望著天空想了一些自己對自己說的倫理：
1. 只要對方沒有告訴你真相那就不是事實。
2. 每個人態度不一樣，不能把他們的態度用自己所理解的去編造一個完美的故事。
3. 說話的藝術總得有，適可而止就行但也要看當時的聊天尺度。

早上場堪。
這一次迎新讓我與大家增進感情，當了幹部開始讓自己更加的積極。
我很想說我越來越喜歡這裡。
不知為何，暑假回來之後我好像變了。
是刻意把自己改變嗎？
是positive的改變。=D
我的部落格雖然帶點無聊但它仍然很精彩，因為它有我當它的主人。

對著喜歡的東西的時候會試著與它有距離，不敢靠近它。
這是正常的齁？
睡眠重要。
睡覺去。
ciao~~

大學生活

來到大學要找到一個知己真的很難。
剛剛瘋狂似的做出大學生都會做的事情。
半夜不睡覺躺在操場聊天。
大家說出自己的心聲，我卻不會說。
因為~~~

一度想大哭，一度想說出，最後還是吞進肚子去了。

我現在很想找事情做，做到自己真的不知道自己在做什麽。
我不要想東西，我不要睡覺醒來枕頭還是濕的，我不要讓自己頭痛。
真實還是假意自己心知肚明，我不喜歡被騙。
我不要像以前一直放不下一些事情自己難過無人知。
天蝎座真的很重感情。
身上長很多毛的人真的很重感情。

皮膚黝黑的人很在意一些小事情。
我很敏感。
對於一些我接受不到的事情，腦里會自動編出劇情，越想越遠，就讓自己哭了。
Such a relief.

爲什麽人類這麼複雜？
有的講話過於直，有些卻一直拐彎抹角。
到底是真是假沒有人曉得。
我會想到自己太天真，我會想到自己的思想還沒有成熟。
我會想到其實自己并沒有很好。
我會想到其實一切都是我在編故事，當導演，當演員。
我是一位傳播者沒錯！想像力豐富卻會傷害到自己，這叫好嗎？

部落格就是我的知己，對一個永遠不會回覆你但又願意聽你講話的東西就是好。
黑字白字總比言語、思想簡單得多。

累了，我要睡覺。
ciao~~~

To be like living

There are many things I can do.
It is whether you want to do it or not.
Lazy is the lamest-lousiest reason for not doing it.
*Papa's quote. =X
Seriously, I knew this with common sense.
No one will success without putting any effort or trying to seek as many reason as possible to avoid doing things.

Me, papa's girl mama's girl.
I was shocked when Laarni (our Philippines' domestic helper) said that Am I a Papa's girl?
I was told that I am a flower in a greenhouse (direct translate from Chinese) before, should I happy or should I not? The person is just 1 year older than me.
I do care for each and every word that people describe me.
I'm not wanting myself to be mature though.
Last summer, I thought of doing this and that to make full use of my Uni life.
It is in progress! =D
I'm trying to think more during discussion.
Trying to be more mature in the sense of thinking.

This semester would be the toughest semester I will ever have I guess.
Facing "Problems" people, facing juniors, facing my boss, facing everyone that is not in a click with me.
EQ, balancing my emotion and trying not to be too emotional.
IQ, balancing my Intelligence and trying not to be silly while talking.

I wish the new pillow I bought last week will be useful.
Less insomnia, less worries at night.
Sleep tight and have a sweet dream.

說話的藝術

說話也要有藝術——*講話的藝術*。
不是叫你拐彎抹角但就是要有藝術。

我無法承受那些過度自信的人，然後自以為自己是絕對正確的而去糾正別人。
我也不喜歡我在跟別人聊天的時候，一直試圖把我所說的話糾正好。我又不是你！
我不喜歡我在問別人問題的時候你總是愛像“教導”我的老師，“教”我“你懂我的意思嗎？”/“你明白嗎？”
頂，如果我要問你我早就問你了，還問別人幹嘛？
我就是抱著“我懂了”的心態去問別人希望他給的答案是我要的或是與我知道的相同，好讓我安慰。
你卻愛覺得很瞭解我，覺得我問的問題很蠢，所以要“教”我。
我不是不喜歡你的人，只是你所做的會讓我覺得，你覺得我很蠢。
我真的很不喜歡跟你爭論，每一次你覺得我說的東西有點問題，就糾正我。
好，我讓你糾正就算了，但是你卻根本不知道我在想什麽而下定論說我是這樣想的，這樣對我公平嗎？
你知道你每次講的話會讓我覺得，你是個覺得我很蠢的人。
這樣真的有對你好嗎？
做朋友難道開個玩笑說個超級無厘頭的話也不能嗎？
我自認我開的玩笑的確有點沒道理，但是這就是我所謂可愛的一面啊！
我說的超無厘頭你就愛糾正我說：“你應該 bla bla bla~~~”
再繼續這樣下去我真的不懂接下來要怎麼跟你溝通。

我之前對你就已經有這樣的感覺了，沒想到我一直不斷的暗示你說做人不必那樣，但你似乎沒有領悟到我對你的不太滿意反而更加變本加厲。
難道要我把話說得那麼直你才明白我要說的意思嗎？
這樣真的不好，我告訴你。
你有你的想法，那是你的。
我有我的想法，那是我的。
但是你愛把我的想法改成你的。
跟自己好的朋友講話是不用想這麼多，直接講就好了的不是嗎？
但是我跟你講話每次都要想該不該這樣講，這樣算是好朋友嗎？

我想我們聊天只能很普通的聊一些：你今天幹什麼？工讀好累哦。今天那個誰誰誰真的超級 bla bla bla 之類的吧！
希望會有改變。

Camp Rock

Camp Rock!
I wish to include music in this camp.
Playing with music, interacting through music.
because I love music.
Influencing everyone beside me.

=D

孤掌難鳴

孤掌難鳴。
做任何事情都要團體合作。
我很容易臉臭臭，這是我的缺點。I admit it.

學姐介紹機會給我，但是我想很多。
又來了，信心很重要。

whatever, 很想什麽事都不想去睡覺了。

goodbye. Ciao~~~

淺眠

以前睡覺都像豬一樣，再怎麼吵也不會起來。
最近睡眠很淺，一點點的聲音就可以把我吵醒。
好事嗎？
不用鬧鐘也可以起床。
以前很討厭早上的課，一定會賴床。
但現在早上沒課我反而不自在，因為我太早起來不知要做什麽了。
真是怪咖一個。

或許是上一次家裡發生了一些事情，讓我睡覺都有點擔驚受怕。
所以以前睡覺從來都沒有警覺心的我，現在自然的警覺了。
好事嗎？
或許吧！這樣我白天的時間久更多了。

多來

請允許我在此發言。
有時候我不瞭解自己更不瞭解別人。
我會因為自己想到的東西而快樂；也會因為別人說了與我想到的相反而不快樂。
我就是如此的搖擺不定。
剛剛與一般政馬同學賞月吃月餅提燈籠，很好玩。
但是我似乎是失魂落魂的，他們笑我也笑，講話我就沉默。
爲什麽一個人能夠推測出許多可能性？
一句話到底可以代表什麽？
別人的一句話其實很簡單，自己幹嘛自作聰明把它複雜化？
人與人之間到底要怎樣才能夠互相瞭解彼此？
 爲什麽我每次都可以讓自己覺得有希望又讓自己覺得失望？
或許我應該像別人說的，不用想太多要做就做吧！

我想說的每次都不知要如何說。
害怕下一次不知要如何收場，害怕日後拖累了自己。
所以沉默是良藥。
一個人說的每一句話真的能夠讓我心神不寧，或者讓我思考很久很久。
這是因為我沒有特定的方向的意思嗎？

可能是我多來想了。
其實一切跟之前一樣沒有改變。
我還渴望得到什麽？
擺在眼前的不知道是不是事實就自己下定論，我真糟糕。

永和豆漿回來路上我就一直在想。
也不知到底在想什麽，我都快飆淚了說真的。
想的入神真的會讓人崩潰。
我以後不會再讓自己‘自作聰明’想這麼多。
不再把東西複雜化，不再多來。

睡覺。

Changement in progress

The worst thing ever in once life is to hear someone tell you: "Eh, you fat already."
Some will accept and set their mind to control their diets.
but when it's half way to success, people will give up easily because it is obviously mental torturing.
I just envy those people who can ignore those yummy yummy foods and eat the so-not-tasty food.
Ok, keep on talking is useless, Do it now rather than keep on dreaming for a perfect body like Megan Fox.
Nah, 'they' had plastic surgery. =X ops...Some are real material la of course.

Second year first semester. I'm in my sophomore year! hooray! Aiks!
I got what I want
1. Work - to fill up my empty time so that I don't attempt to eat more while facing the computer.
2. Yoga - not yet register as member because school not yet reopen but it's to be confirmed!
3. Jog - Making full use of my school by rotating the pathway for jogging purposes.

Yesterday night, jogged from my Uni to Zoo!
Surprisingly, I jogged non-stop from Uni to Zoo but rest for a while when I went back from Zoo to Uni.
Then, walked in the Uni's sport field for one round, settled down and chit-chating with Vjing.
Lying down on the field track and looking up the dark sky which was decorated by some bright little stars, it was so relax that I made myself like I was in the galaxy without any weight to worry and just look at anything that appear in front of me.
I swear no matter how cold the weather will be in future months, I will do the same thing most probably during examination weeks. XD

The Culture Cup, last year I don't feel like joining in anymore after the months we 'suffered' and got a champion because it really will tie up my schedule.
This year I should be the accompanist, but my time clashed with the practicing time which caused me to leave.
Anyway, I helped them for these 2 days (7,8 Sept) to be the accompanist.
I just feel reluctant because this is what I like, doing things I like in a group of people who also like music.
Wish them luck in the competition. My spirit will always be there. =)

Well, I guess back to make my blog to be more colourful and information-full is how I plan my time.
想做的就去做，機會不會有第二次。

18 weeks

Reduced 100 pounds  in 2 months = 8 weeks?!
SHUT UP!
What kind of exercise are  you guys doing?!
18 weeks, use time wisely I swear!