Hi Blogger, I'm back. One year passed. You've had missed lots of my great experiences through out the year! Well, it was a night I was sharing my stories to my boyfriend, and I remembered you and mentioned your existence in my life. So now I'm back to recall some memories by sharing them with you, and, to improve my English perhaps. teehee.
I read the latest post I wrote was 2014, October, about my job while I was a freshman. Yeah, I'm still working with the music producer as mentioned, my job scopes increased and sometimes I have no privacy. I think it's not easy to work in this entertainment industry, be it the communicating skills with people, socializing skills, managing skills etc. It is exactly what I want to be while I was choosing my degree course, but when it comes to the society, you'll give lots of discounts to the iamgined-perfections. Yeah, 'perfect' is just imagination, WAKE UP!
Let me start from what I'm doing now. I write proposal, for my boss to do presentation and meetings with company bosses for the purpose to collaborate or for sponsorship, it varies. I feel awkward sometimes with my job, it feels like working at home but I can actually feels the invincible pressures around me. I design, video editing, artist managing, music composing, music production assistant, singing bla bla bla, I have many roles and sometimes I'm confused. Once, I asked myself, what do I want to be? Singer? or Production related? Behind-the-scene or on the stage? I have no answer. The best thing and motivation is to be prepared everyday and try to change yourself, be it your values, your thoughts or physical.
Although I'm still in a mist without exact direction in my life, but I think it's important to push yourself harder. I'm not hard enough I know. but Blogger, I changed a lot, I do exercise 3-4 times a week, I run, I'm a runner, the longest run I'd run was 12km in 1hr15min. I eat healthy, less oil less salt and I seldom drink. I took me a long time to decide for these changes. Well, at least I chose the right way to have a better life, to reach the targeted weight. When I feel to give up, I will talk to myself. The time I'd used throughout the changing process will be wasted, by then I continued. :) Thinking positively is important to success I believe.
Do you know I have 2 relationships this year? The first relationship last for about 2 months (Jan+Feb). Hmmm not much memories and we were like strangers. He is not the right guy. but I was real sad, it's normal right? okay let's not talk about him, passed by. I found my 2nd relationship on end-of-August, we chat for 3 weeks, and meet for 2 weeks, and we got together. This is abit different because I feel like there is a connection. yet we are still not familiar enough. Still a stranger to me I assume. I think I grew up after the first relationship, I got the experience and I know what to do. I hope I can grow up from this relationship.
Okay. that's all for now. I'm tired. Good night blogger. I'll miss you. :D
