瘋了

我真不知道自己在想什麽 在幹什麼
我只知道自己真的瘋了

我今天做了決定要去預約諮商
我要把一切事情告訴一位陌生人

這樣應該會好過吧？

爲什麽長大之後越來越複雜？

爲什麽長大之後我變得那麼多？

爲什麽長大之後才知道社會是如此的出乎我預料？

爲什麽長大之後我會這樣子？

爲什麽腦海裡一直有著很多的爲什麽？

爲什麽有些事情真的可以被劃分的那麼清楚而我有時候真的不想要把它弄得那麼清楚？

爲什麽長大之後講話可以越直接越好？

爲什麽長大之後心理總是怪怪的？

爲什麽在沒有家人的控管下我好像太自由了？

怎麼辦我真的好想找個陌生人聊天
聊什麽都好只要不是身邊任何一個我認識的人

Stop me please

Seriously how great if those imaginary stuffs in my mind be written out black and white
I admit that these stuffs are all so C R E A T I V E !
I love to think a lot
but sometimes it will lead me to negative thoughts
It happens often when I'm here, Taipei, Taiwan.
I'd analyzed, when I was in KL during winter holiday, I had lots of free time to THINK, but I didn't.
but when I was in Taipei, I think a lot.
perhaps I don't have anyone to share or to really soul talk to
sounds sad huh

Well, so what am I thinking?
This and that.
Think about future and acted out.
Think about many 'what if'sss, and acted out.
Being the scriptwriter cum director cum actor.
Busy

Anyways, I'm now seriously out of mind
Writing without any points
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Okay, I miss you again.
Please go away can?
我曾看到：“要放下的時候就要放下，說不定對方根本沒把你放在心上”
這句話是真的
我還是放不下
我說真的
我不知哪根筋壞了
我真的壞了一點點
我每次會莫名其妙的想逼自己哭
因為這桶眼淚真的真的埋了好久
甚至導致我根本忘了怎麼哭

I need to be Fixed
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