Should post this earlier

Renewed passport past few days.
What I want to say is, MONEY is no big deal to me.

Well, the story begin on 23th Jan.
I woke up unwillingly in the morning 6.20 am.
Rushed within 5 minutes and got out. *phew*
Prepared all important documents but i forgotten the most important one --IC.
=_____=
How careless. Who to blame? Myself.
my purse is like HUGE with bears pattern, laziness probs.
Turned back to home and get my purse. *sorry pa and mummy .___.*
Reached Metro Kajang in BLACK.
They sky was still dark, couldn't even see my fingers. @@
A guy told us Immigration shifted to other place.
I was like OMG, i should copy the address like what dad said.
After 15 min reached.
We were the second one who queued up.
Sunday not many people.

Okay, cut short, straight to the point.
I showed all my documents to prove that I'm a University student.
Photostated all the important documents and explained to those officers for like 30 minutes?!
The reason I'd been rejected is because of the language-----Chinese.
The officer say he couldn't understand Chinese, ask me to go to mahkamah translate.
I was thinking I already showed my Offer letter in ENGLISH and explained again and again.
I never give up because I'm REAL! I'm not FAKER!
I argued and kept on persuade him.
but then, he still rejected me to give me the Special Price (students below 21 y/o will have half price).
What I felt sad is that, I am really a Student in that Uni!
If I really don't, then how can I have student card? why I need to do VISA? why I need to waste so many time to argue?!
The point is, I proved my receipt that I payed to the University in the first semester.
It's in Chinese.
With this, he give a reason that all in Chinese he "TAK FAHAM".
I felt sad. I know he can't understand, but the main thing is I care for another matter.
Chinese Lang is our own language but with his "TAK FAHAM" makes me feel that Chinese in Malaysia have no rights. I felt sad.
I can't "debate" with him after he gave this reason.
The only chance is tell him I have the OFFER LETTER!
He say offer letter only, you should prove you really payed to the uni.
After all, I thought the percentage for me to win this case is 0%, so I gave up and went towards my parents for help.

Then, I met the HEAD officer.
We went in the "Bilik Rundingan"
He asked me questions and I answered.
He checked precisely.
And I gave all my important documents to prove.
Then, settled.
Everything settled.
SEE! HEAD (Ketua) is always different.
He think before he reject me.

What I learned that day is I argued is not because of money, it's because of my Rights!
I'm real but he putar balikkan.
Anyway, thanks to my parents who gave supports.

Life is full of obstacles, I only got through one small little matter.
Guess I'll face more in the future.

爲什麽有言論自由、講學自由、出版自由、著作自由，卻沒有
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新聞自由

其實這社會本來就不自由。







腦里突然想著很多很多東西。
我在這裡學的，
見到的，
與我出生的地方相比
其實很不同。

人愛想像很自然，
想像如果我得到這分數我就可以PASS。
想像如果做了一樣東西會不會真的實現。

這些不是想像
是~~~~慾望。
人對自己的慾望太執著，
總覺得90%會實現。
那這些自由的出現是為了什麼而出現？
是爲了讓你不去渴望，不去奢求，不去壓抑自己，
活得有威嚴。




發洩完畢。
想法抒發完畢。
迷糊的我變了思想家。

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Last Minute proves everything

I told myself before:" No last minute work please Miss Lim Hui Jun."
Like what people say, Nah you'll never follow what you say.
And yes, it's true. .___.
Just for NOW! Serious!
I know I'm too slow in catching up, I'll try. .___.
Chinese terms and Chinese words are all so "ARTISTIC",
that's what Chinese should be proud because we as a Chinese can write these kind of words *plus* it's the most difficult and complicated language I guess.
Emm, German is also another one but at least they use alphabet. *Am I right? >_<*
I seldom read newspaper and seldom read books, either English or Chinese.
Guess I need to upgrade myself by reading more Chinese books during Winter Break.

That's my resolution.
Yeah, I almost forgot my new year resolution!
Well, here it is:
1. Join Clubs next semester, probably Guitar Club or Yoga club.
2. Do revision at night, jot down the Questions that I need to ask the lecturer and email them or ask in the next class.
3. Sports! GYM! Make full use of the gym room downstairs because I will shift my hostel on the third semester.
4. Ask if there are things to ask, no SHY-ness in Uni. .___.
5. Join more friends in my department. Eat lunch together and shop together and gossip together.
6. Read more books and newspaper
7. Online read news if lazy and always stay update with the latest news here.
8. No Laziness.

It's enough. I will try to do what I said.

ciao~~~

錯覺

彭湘云：“說你可愛就代表對你沒有意思，只把你當成一般美眉那樣；說你長得還不錯或者漂亮就代表對你有意思。”

什麽？！
這是我的錯覺嗎？
前天看到有一組的展演題目《錯覺》，覺得女主角好自戀。
那男生明明就不認識她，她卻認為他把她當女朋友。
是怎樣啊？！
錯覺真的很惱人。=(

算了。
今天考完媒體素養論。
我告訴自己：“我有付出就會有收穫。”
算是自己安慰自己吧！
兩個小時要作答10題申論文，而且要用繁體。
天啊！這是多么大的考驗。
華語簡體字已經夠難寫了，現在要挑戰我寫繁體字。
而且在Malaysia 很少寫華語，大多都是打電腦的鍵盤~~囧。
現在，我重回小學。
政馬開會的時候，我竟然和Vinshen學繁體字~~囧again。
這個學期我真的盡力了。
雖然每次考完試都有一個憧憬——我下學期一定要早一點讀書，不能臨時抱佛腳。>< 我真的希望這是真的！我真的真的真的想要變得文學一點、氣質一點、聰明一點。@@
但是看到這裡的人，拿到考卷瘋狂寫字，瘋狂寫了一頁。而我卻寫了4行子~~~囧again and again.
是我知識不夠嗎？答案是YES。
是我不夠勤勞嗎？答案是不一定~~~再怎麼勤勞，事實及自身所經歷的也很重要，畢竟我讀的科系很需要自身經歷——經驗非常重要！
總而言之，我很想提升自己。
我來這裡不是混的，有什麽要做的就去做。

有鼓勵自己的心就要有行動的心。
光是紙上談兵是沒用的。
別人的一些稱讚只是一種鼓勵，鼓勵你做的再好一些。
如果這麼輕易接受別人的稱讚而停留在同樣的階級~~你~~將會是落後的。

最後，我要對自己說：“不要活在錯覺當中，要活在現實內。”