Precious Time

Time is precious.
I missed lots of things because I didn't manage my TIME well.
Not to say that I don't even manage.
I tried, but still I took long time to finish something which is scheduled.
Today, I feel left out again.
I was out from the class.
I have to do those apply thingy.
Nobody helped me last week to mark attendance.
I shouldn't blame them, because that's not their business and
WHO AM I???!!!
What are their benefits to help me???

Back to yesterday,
I gave up something.
SOMETHING!
I made a very very big decision.
The answer is "NO"!!
Therefore, I 'talked' to myself,
:" You should be firm to your decision, once it's made, don't regret because that's your decision. Nobody can help you to change it even god."
So, I will not regret. I told myself.
NO REGRETS.
=)

I have to study now.
A very very important examination is waiting for me.
=D

Ways to go

Blogger~~~~
127th post.
I signed up to blogspot when I was in Form 2, but I gave up because I didn't know what to write/type.
In Form 4, I signed up again at the end of the year.
My first post was kinda lame.
Now, 2/5/2010,
this is my 127th POST!
Who cares right?!

Well, I always run out of topic.
So, today's title is ways to go.
What's the purpose I set this title?
LOLS... Frankly speaking, there's no purpose.
Just feel like want to express something out, but it's kinda hard to be explained by words.
Em...I don't really have contents for this post.
Well, let's share some photos. =)

That's me with SHORT SHORT hair...

OK, no more...lols...No new pics recently...
Ciao. =)

丑

你最出丑的时候是几时？
唱歌唱破音？
穿高跟鞋跌倒？
对不起啦，我不能举例太多，一时也想不起那么多。

以上两个例子，我都经历过。
真的超级丑！！！
所谓出丑是光荣之母。
你要光荣，总得经历一段丑日吧！
不好意思，我的引用会不会太烂了？(⊙_⊙)
好，没关系反正我要的光荣又不是Mount Everest 那么高。
就那Kinabalu 山一般的高度就够了。XD
别看遍Kinabalu 啊！Malaysia you know?!
全东南亚最高的山哩！

好回到正题。
就从唱歌开始吧！
昨天，面试及口试了I-Do。
虽然并不是很formal的面试，但是我真的有准备哦！
真的是很衰，自弹自唱搞屁哦？！=.=
最后哩？ 破声！
还好我够快，很快就带过了。o(≧v≦)o~~好棒

高跟鞋啊？
够力！还好不是在那么多人的面前！
不然，真的不想见人了，我愿意当宅女！
谁叫我在还没生出来的时候，
基因那么快的就要我是个矮的。
那就是所谓的gene.=)
Chromosomes 在作怪！

还有哦，最近会很忙很忙。
忙什么？读书！
真的！
所以下星期会在宿舍了。
拜六礼拜也是，但是千万千万不要来找我！
我不会答你任何问题。
本小姐将会忙得很。
=)

下线了，读书去。
=D

Life with obstacles

Obstacles, I learned this word when I was in form 1.
My sister is the one who taught me this word. =)
The reason is because she was explaining the obstacles I'll be going through in a camp.
Therefore, I used it often in my essays. XD
It's quite a general word to be used.

The main purpose I focuses on OBSTACLES this word is because
I'd gone through some obstacles.
I shouldn't take things simple.
I thought motor is very easy to pass.
But, with my so called 'confidence', I failed TWICE!
because of the TITI!!
Well, I did quite well when I was practicing.
but, failed perhaps because of my nervousness.
I begged the JPJ people, they cruelly said : TAK~ BO~LEH!!!
I speechless, I cried, I was helpless.
The uncle, yeah, the UNCLE who always sit outside the JPJ room,
Can even recognize me because I FAIL often. =.=
I asked him for help at first, so he said next time if I come for test, see him,
He'll try to talk on behalf of me.

Another thing, College stuffs.
I was in a some sort of mood which is hard to be explained.
I don't know whether my thinking is the right one.
I can't differentiate.
I missed lots of classes and assignments.
Do you all really think I don't care?!
I CARE!!!!
But, I don't know where to start.
Time table, chart? I did. but still function-less.
Guess that I'm the only one who knows what I'm thinking.
Hard to be explain la dude (blogspot).
One more thing, I feel like I was left out,
perhaps I always truant.
Left out from the topics my friends were talking.
Left out from the hot news in College!!
Left out lots of things which need people to make special arrangement for me and I kept on delaying it.
I really feel sorry and, I have got no choice.

Third,
By going through these obstacles,
I know more about the public transport in KL and Selangor.
That's one of the benefits.
=)

Special thanks to those who support me.
Care for me.
=)
No matter what, I still need SUPPORT. =)
but, support means support,
you can mention once but not every time.
If every second every minute you say support me,
I will get annoyed and I'll feel that you are not sincere.
I might think that you say by word only ma, easy job like that.
SINCERITY.
Thank You.

Examination

Car examination tomorrow.
=)
Today's post simple a bit. =)

什么

我觉得自己真的有时很自私。
我要的东西，就要别人为我完成。
我需要帮忙，就要人家来帮忙。
但是，帮我的人一直都有个问题。
我却只能靠说的，安慰的话也很少讲。
他帮了我。
我连一句谢谢都没说。
是别人的话，一收到一样东西，
一定会说一声：“谢谢”。
但是，我说的也只是通过FB。
隔了几天，我还是没有亲口说出口。
我从来都没有慰问过他的下落。
我没有试着去关心在我身边的人。
更何况是我身边的亲人。
我甚至，连要看他样子都要在FB看。

那个人，就是我大哥。
现在，他每次都早出晚归。
上星期四到今天，我一直都在家。
虽然，他每天晚上都在家睡，我们住在同一屋檐下，
但是，
整个星期，
我都看不到他。
现在已是另一个星期四了。
我只能在凌晨12.00见到我哥哥。
我不知说什么好，就说：“eh,好久不见！”
这是妹妹该说的话吗？！
他没理我。
我之后再问：“昨天我睡了，你还没有回来吗？”
他没回答。
只耸肩一下。

顿时，我觉得好奇怪。
以前，我们都是一起玩的，
一起癫，都是他做主。
现在，
各奔东西南北，
好像陌生人了。
而且，他也很少回家吃饭了。
他说，他在avoid/逃避。
逃避为了避免爸生气。

长大了，真的会这样吗？
千依百顺就只有小时候吗？
长大了，就不顺了吗？
长大了，有自己的想法，是好还是坏？
逃避是方法吗？
劝导是方法吗？
坐下来一起谈真的很难吗？

我希望，我的家人可以看到这post。
因为，我们不是陌生人。

Truant

Truant = ponteng in Malay
=)
Should I be proud to truant for the whole week?
Lols, shouldn't be. XD

As I said, my schedule fulled!!!
Wanted to go to the PC fair with friends on Saturday,
but I have to attend an examination and also a driving lesson.

And, I FAILED my motor Exam!!!!!
I was so pissed off that day.
I know I shouldn't blame anyone, that's all my fault maybe because I was too confident or Nervous.
How could I failed something which is so so damn EASY!! =.='''
The titi ---- I used to be very confident during practicing time.
The Jalan ---- I used to be the pro who taught an Indian on what to do. =.=
But, I fell down from the titi because my speed was too slow. =.=
I should increase it a bit.!!!!
I was so damn angry that time.
So, I accelerated faster as usual at the Emergency Break section. XD
Then, the jalan as usual, showed those stupid things.
Manatau, during a sharp turn, I couldn't balance and put my leg down.
FAILED~~~~ =.='''
The easiest Bahagian III I also failed!!!!
DAMN!!!
I learn motor is to fail is it?? and to pay them money for re-exam is it??
I was thinking, "The way you all earn money is to hope that all your students FAIL?!"

Another case, I was so pissed off too to the instructor who teach me.
He shouted at me.
Fine, I'm going to prove my ability in driving to him this Saturday!

Another case, went for some interview these days.
That's one of the reasons.
=)
One more thing!!
I went back to school on 12th April 2010.
I was pissed off too!!!
The attire I wore not formal meh?!!
Not official meh?!!
Close-minded humans.
Polish shoes humans!!
Small-little-puppy-behind-their-boss's-ass humans!!
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I really hate those kind of eying....
Like, wherever I go, eying everywhere. (#‵′)凸 我靠( ‵o′)凸
*The one I mentioned is only a person, not everyone*

Jealousy

ARGH!!! I'm now in Jealous mood.
I'm not pretty,
I'm not gorgeous.
I'm just not to everything!

Why? I'm jealous after reading those things.
Why would it be?
It should be mine but i let it go.
It shouldn't be yours but you grab it from me.
I'm not blaming you but to say that,
if you do not exist, perhaps there's still a chance for me RIGHT!
I feel really wasteful as I really like it before.
Before!!!
but I didn't tell it. T_______________T
I just ignore it wherever it is.
I regretted after some scenario happened.
but why it don't ask?!!!
It pretend that I already don't want it.
It just PRETEND, it didn't ask me!!!
T_____________T
If it ask face to face, I would consider maybe after SPM?!
I know you 'things' cannot tahan those lonely time,
so, simply go and mix with other creature and met new ONE!!
I'm so angry and so SPEECHLESS after I got those news.
So, til now, no more creature come to me.
because, they Scared. WTF!!!!
I really hope that I can go oversea to pursue my tertiary studies and forget these things!!!
I wanna change into new leaf,
I wanna proof that you made the wrong decision,
I wanna make you regret,
I wanna make you feel sorry,
I wanna meet new creature!!!!!!
C~R~E~A~T~U~R~E~

Am I really a problematic girl??

心情很容易就被打败。

我放弃了一样东西，当我再回头看它时，突然很不悦。

我妒忌被我放弃的东西，竟然被别人要了。

好好笑哦，我竟然这么的~~~矛盾。请原谅我的幼稚。:(

别以为我不哭，其实，哭的最多的人，就是我。
我痛恨在别人面前哭，哭做么？
博同情？
死了才有人同情你吧！

你会明白吗？
说来说去，只有我自己懂，
说真的，我是位很难express自己的感觉给别人听的女生。
真的很想，总有一天告诉一个我真真真真真的相信的人。
几时，到底几时才是适合的时间？！！
我还能渴望多久？
不知道为什么，自从Form3 那一段路之后，
我，有所畏避。
一直不敢开多一条路了。
=)


每次，自己一个人在弹钢琴。
认识我的人知道的啦，
爱发梦的我，爱看偶像剧的我，
在弹钢琴的当儿，
一直希望有个人可以默默的在背后支持我，
欣赏那只有我可弹出来的歌。
但是，这种画面好像只有花花世界，偶像世界才会有吧。
我这种稻草不是花的人，平凡不是偶像的人，
看来等了一百年也等不到吧！
观众，可能就只有我一个人。
听众，可能就是我或则那个时钟。



算了，说别的。
I'm going back to school on Monday with formal attire.
Then, will go to New Era after that.
Tuesday and Wednesday not going to school.
Schedule kinda fulled!!

Decision

Sometimes, it's hard to make decision.
Because, both got their own benefits.
Sometimes, we have to be choosy.
Of course, we must choose the best.
Sometimes, we have to leave.
Because, both got their own reasons.

What am I suppose to be?
I suppose to be an introvert, but now, I overcoming it.
Things can change in a glance.
Today you see a boy wearing T-shirt, the next day you will see him wearing bikini. XP
*lame right, sorry, don't know how to make an example.

As a Media student, it is a must to be extrovert.
Things around us are actually Media.
Even human is part of Media.
They could pass the message and latest info but it's not that accurate and consistent.
As for Facebook, like what my lecturer said.
Facebook's news are faster than Newspaper.
We can comment wherever we want.

Today, I went back by KTM.
Kevin teman. >.<
I was like a sardine being squeezed by HUMAN.
Ate his biscuit. =P

arghhh, face getting worst nowadays,
oily, pale. My roommate said I look like corpse. =.=
My lips white in colour, my face look pale.
How la? I was born to be like that what.
but, still can rectify it if I care about myself. lols.

I have to present on Monday already,
how? I'm incharge of Power Point.

Dream

Stop dreaming girl.
Don't misunderstand girl.
but, I don't really understand,
why?!!!
I really hate these kind of feelings.
HATE it!!
You purposely or what??
sigh...
I don't know, you don't know.
I tell you, if there's something you really wanna tell me,
TELL ME!!!!!!!
TELL EARLIER!!!!!!!

Yesterday, I went to UG hall.
I really desperate to play piano that time.
So, I accompany Bee Xien to Canteen to bungkus food first.
Then, I suggested to go to UG Hall for fun.
She ate there and I played there with only a light opened.
~~~~I was Playing the PIANO~~~~
=D

That's how I preform with only one audience.
=D

Braveness

My 1st day in class was like....BO~~~ring~~~ng~~ ~.~
Journalism---this subject really dead. My lecturer taught us about all those politic things & economic things.
Honestly, for the 3.5 hours in class, I totally can't understand what she was talking.
Means, I can't get her point.
Learned 新文学，新闻史, English.
All about Journalism. Kinda bored.
Luckily there's English course which is out of JOURNALISM!
As for the history of Journalism, the lecturer gave us an assignment about Europe History of Journalism.
My group leader was so damn UNLUCKY! We will be the 1st group to present next week.
=.='''
Well, I forgot to bring my towel to Hostel, so I planned to use my T-shirt to wipe. XD

The Orientation Camp was kinda fun, met lots of people but neither one is from Media Studies department. sigh.
At least, I was brave enough to talk on the 2nd day. XD
We played lots of games.
Water games,newspaper game (20 person have to step on 4 pieces of paper!), Played scissors paper stone...
The most unforgettable game was the dancing part, must be in paired!!!
I paired with some guys which I don't know who are they. XD
and, paired with "Honda"...the Senior (facilitator) of my group.
but, didn't paired with XXX! He paired with another leng lui wor. hng.
Then 2nd night before we go to sleep, we discussed about the show we were going to present on the 3rd day.
I took the opportunity to talk to THEM! I knew their name and forgot it. lols
Then went back to my house before the closing ceremony. T____T Couldn't take a group photo.

Well, back to the topic---braveness.
I tried to talk in the English Class.
I answered almost 90% of the lecturer's questions.
^^b
Maybe because it's ENGLISH. lols.
Was using library's computer, FB damn lag.
Can't post any comment! T___T

9.00 pm will close. Guess I have to go back to hostel.
Ciao. =D

College

I'm going for registration in New Era College on 25th March 2010.
26th - 28th March 2010 Orientation Camp.

Well, time to motivate myself.
1. Social
2. Sporting
3. Talk more x talk less

College life, woo. time passes fast.
I'm going to turn 18. ><
Have to adapt myself A-G-A-I-N in a new environment.
The most happy thing is I get their Excellent Student Scholarship.
Free tuition, miscellaneous and accommodation fees.
Still, have to pay some to cover.

Well, I had an interview today (24/3/2010)
Interviewer :" What story will you write if you are given a chance to write in this magazine?"
ME :" em.....ar.....THE YOUNGSTER NOWADAYS???"
* I was like, OMG, what a childish topic (secondary school) =@=
The title too broad la, I have no idea at that moment.
You know, I'm interested in those things which are related to COLOURS.
As for Black and White words, still can consider, but still, my interest is in COLOURS related things.
*sigh* I really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really hope that, I PASS!
My dream, what's my dream?
Things related to Colour??
Guess so.
Journalist? Do you really think I can? =@=
DJ? Can I? =@=

Anyway, I really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really want it!

But, if there's a better offer, I lagi lagi lagi lagi lagi lagi lagi want IT!
Yeah, forgot to say, YOU PEOPLE,
You will have the benefits if you can speak various type of languages.
For bananas, it's such a waste as you are a Chinese but you can't speak mandarin. =(
As what I know and explored and searched nowadays, the market needs people who can speak Mandarin =D

That's all for tonight.
ciao....=)

Result Day

Yesterday came and end very fast.
Yesh,it's the most important day and busy day for me.
SPM Result release day! ^^b
I'm sure all of the Form 5 students who took SPM in 2009 will all be nervous/excited yesterday.
So, I woke up at 8 something and chit-chat with dad.
Woke bro up who took leave to accompany me for this special day.
Reached there at 11 something, some were early some were late.
I chat with Felicia, angela and others.
Everyone's expression looks different, some tidak apa, some nervous, some excited, some very confident. XD 11.15pm ji muis reached.
11.30pm I complained why SO SLOW still can't get our result?!
Bro told me that mum's school all had given the results, our school? mo jie!
It's abit different this year, excellent students will go up to the stage and get the result infront of SO Many PEOPLE!
12As---How Teck Kien
11As---Tan Khai Yoong
10As---A Lot

I was really really nervous that time. hands and legs cold!
when the teacher said LIM-----Chia Voon, I was like....yor, not me ar?!
At last, LIM----HUI----JUN.
I ran up and took happily, but, still not that satisfy, 1B 1C!!
xiao.
Terus called mum and dad. I'd even cry. Too excited I guess.
Then, busy with my stuffs and don't even have the time to chat with friends. =@=

一个女孩的故事

现在的我，正在听着屋顶-周杰伦和温岚。
有什么感触呢？
老实说，突然很想有个人陪伴。
长大了？
不晓得。
想谈恋爱了？
不知道。
其实，为什么我一直等待奇迹出现？
我好想快点融入一个新环境。
忘了那些“不清楚的交代”。
好犹豫的post哦。=X

我在想，是我态度出现问题了吗？
为什么一声不响“没交代”！
难道，就只有隔空交谈才会快乐？
为什么心里一直在------
sigh 突然好想哭，好像心碎了。

当我收到风，
装着若无其事，
好难受。

Two >>>>>>one

Two is Better Than One
=D

妄想

事情那么简单不就好咯！
但是，如果要完美，太简单也很难过关啊！
太复杂让人眼花缭乱。
那么我的算是简单还是复杂？
不乱也很完美，但是总觉得好像缺了什么似的。
完美，
如果出现在我身上，
就
好
=D

111 post

第一百一十一的部落格。=D
Hundred and eleventh blog. =D

Last few days, I went to Surfine Hitech.
Sunday, I took my Ujian Undang-Undang.
PASSED...weeee=D
Damn easy, but still have to read la.
Then, Monday went to Surfine,for Teori and Amali Motor.
Tuesday Teori and Amali for Car.
Something embarassing happened on Monday.
The teacher asked :"secara jujurnya dan ikhlas, siapa yang LANGSUNG tak tahu menaiki Motor?"
I am the only one who raised the hand. =.='''
Very weird meh? I don't know means I follow Undang-undang ma!


Last Saturday, 20/2/10
went to Mei Yin's renovated house.
Wei Seng asked me a favor,
he asked whether I want to play piano or organ or not?
Of course I will say YES.
*If there's a chance for me to perform, I'll always try my best!*
Of course, I'll ask WHY?
He said his cousin (biao jie) will have a wedding dinner at Tai Thong, so he ask me whether I'm interested to play some wedding songs that day.
20th MARCH 2010.
I have some wedding songs though, I can play if there's a STAGEA DDK-7 or STAGEA Custom!!!
If I really desperate to perform that day,
I have to shift my STAGEA DDK-7 from my house to tai thong which need my dad and brother's help.
So, it's like very troublesome as its not a CHEAP STAGEA!

These days, feel like wanna convert all my diskette songs into my pendrive!
All the nice songs can't be played. T_____T
Will call Claris for booking their STAGEA Custom. Hope they won't charge me...lols

No Title

Like what Han Jon said in his blog
Life's HARD!!!

5 hours KPP

Yesterday, registered for the Undang class.
At first, I thought I'll be sitting alone,
After registered, saw Briggita.
Got Partner already.
So, we sat together and waited for the tutor to come in.
Chat a lot about our future and her bf too. XD
Now, I know some producer's jobs and director's jobs.
Kinda tough.
Lifeless job. Never-ending job.
Am I really interested in these kind of job?
Am I suitable?
I'm still in the maize.
I admit that I'm a coward.
After listening what she told me, I have the will to change my mind.
Which means the course I already set to take.
*sigh*

Or I just simply take a course for a Degree Cert is enough.
Business, Management, Marketing etc.
*sigh*
Many things to plan before SPM result release.
I really hope that, the TOTO can kena la!!!!!
Miracles, PLEASE, come and find me, don't find other people!
I need YOU!

Things I wanted to do = MY WISHES

I wish I can be a GREAT Song Composer like Jon Schmidt - He played "Love Story meets Viva La Vida" on the PIANO with Steven Sharp Nelson who played the CELLO.
Fell in Love in the composition and it do looks awesome with the combination of songs.
But, I've to admit that my hearing is not that good.
Although I've learned hearing since 6 years old. =.=
My bro's friend - Eric...PRO man, he play the piano through his EAR, no piano SCORES at all!
He was in the newspaper (STAR).
It's my pleasure because HE PLAYED ON MY PIANO BEFORE!!!!
I wonder how he can improvise a song perfectly.
MINE?! *sigh* I failed my Electone because of my improvisation.
One word can describe--- CHILDISH.
I already squeezed my brain to think some tricky style, but still FAILED.
Maybe it's because the chords I know are limited.
So, no style to show. *sigh*
When can I be like those people who can play piano or other instruments?!
*sigh* Anyway, I'll try my best to google + youtube to learn. LOLS.


I wish I have a more creative mind.
Honestly, I don't think I'm creative enough.
People ask me to give IDEAS, but I can't.
Not to say that I'm not confident, just don't have the idea ma!
*sigh* Hope I can go oversea and learn something in order to be more independent.

I wish people around me will be happy.
I wish I can be like doremon.
I wish I can sing til high notes.
I wish I have a good voice.
I wish I can score in SPM!
I wish I have the luck to kena 'TOTO'!
I wish this year CNY get many many angpau.
I wish this year CNY can visit more relatives- so more angpau. *XD*
I wish this year CNY can buy more clothes.
I wish this year CNY dad will buy a new wardrobe gor me- IKEA!
I wish I can have a phone with a surprise, but must fulfill the style I want.
I wish my friends stay healthy and always keep everyone in contact.
I wish after 10 years, when we have a gathering, I can make them stunned- coz I changed. =)
I wish I can continue my music studies and be a famous composer. *lols*

I wish I don't only TALK but TAKE ACTION from NOW ON!